...Realisation is the key to sucess...

Burst ooppps... IMY

2010-07-22T21:45:00.003+08:00

OMG my last post was posted on 31st May and today is what 22nd July? It's pretty long isn't it? Well it's most probably because I'm half busy and half lazy to blog. So yeah I've been working real hard and enjoy as much also. The reason why I've not been blogging is because i don't really know what to blog. I've been shutting down quite a lot this days. Keeping things just to myself and not expressing much in many ways. Honestly now I've been spending more times with my colleagues or if not i will just be at home watching my TV series!

Maybe because all my friends are pretty busy and our schedule always clash and maybe also i GIVE UP always planning and getting my hopes high then get my heart broken! Okay a bit too drama. You know sometimes when you just want to lead a simple life things just gets complicated and it's not that you even want to get things complicated but it just happen and yet certain people just do not understand it.

I've been doing much thinking, many soul searching and heck i think life is just too short to even care so much what people think about you cause at the end of the day no matter how much you do or try to do the mindset that they have about you will always be there. They will always remember it as much as you try your very best to make them forget about it they just won't. Therefore what you need to do is live your life cause it's really too short. Achieve what you need to and continue to be at your best. People will remember but they also will see what you are trying to do. It will takes time and effort but at the end of it it will be all worth it.

This is what i called proving yourself. You don't need to prove people mindset about certain things. They will always stereotype certain things cause it's in the culture it's in Asian culture. We are never open about anything as much as we always say we are. The only thing that is open is our big fat mouth and our mean words. That's the truth. No matter how nice we are no matter how many good deeds we have done we have that "thing" that we always do.

You know what Politics is never a bad word. It's always there no matter where we go we are bound to have politics. It's the same everywhere. Even Family have politics how sweet this can be.

Finally i can say that I'm in the correct place. The correct industry the place that i want to be the place that i always dream to be. i always say that i love meeting new people facing new challenge everyday of my life without me realising last time it also includes people that I'm working with. It's all about managing people. You know what i love what I'm doing now at least i have a reason loving what I'm doing and not just for the sake of having a paycheck at the end of the month.

I have so much to learn still as it's definitely not easy managing people especially if it comes from all age group. Okay i have a confession to made I'm actually sick and tired of hearing people brag about anything in the world. I'm happy for you people okay? But please lets just all enjoy our self and be grateful to God. If it's not for him you wouldn't be where you are right now. Think about that okay.

Think with your brain and not your heart or any other parts of your body. You know what i mean don't pretend.

You me and she we are not the same!

2010-05-31T19:26:00.002+08:00

We all have that phase in life. I need to get a complete stranger opinion i need someone to talk to that wont judge me and will give me advise. Maybe a shrink or councilor?

I dont know what i'm doing and i don't know if i'm doing a right thing.

Basically my days at work had been fun, i love work is just that maybe i need to do something to made myself feel really occupied and wont be missing a lot of people then. Been watching a lot of Grey's Anatomy during my off days. Nothing better to do normal stuff nothing interesting. What should i do? Well i know the answer i just don't know why i cant bring myself there. Its complicated or maybe its not its just me.

Yesterday was my first SOLO night! I manage to survive the night! After that i had an appointment with Ms P&C. Love that finally i get to see her now i truly knows and understand what she's doing that made her so busy. But the sad part is i'm tired cause i have not get any sleep yet. We switch roles today she the bubbly one and i'm the tired one. I really do appreciate the time she spare for me beside the tight schedule and yeah i took my certificates today at TMIS and i miss that place. Overall today was fun and good! Hope to see her at least in 3 months time or earlier would be better.

I'm taking things easy right now whatever that comes i'm taking it positive. So yeah i just want to tell things to someone friend or what that wont judge me. I doubt there is even one or maybe i don't trust that "that friend" wont judge me.

Long story cut short i have a problem but i'm taking it positive! I know i'm a strong and capable women. Whatever that comes i will take is as a challenge! *Self motivating*

Will keep you updated! :) Have a great day!

My 2nd home.

2010-05-16T22:55:00.004+08:00

I haven't been blogging. I have been busy and lazy to blog. I just don't know what to blog? I just don't know what to feel, what to think, what to do like i'm having problems. But i haven't and the only thing that i feel or i think i feel is that i'm scared yes i'm scared. Pressured and scared but i think its normal. It has been 2 weeks i'm there i'm learning a lot of things i'm thrown into the sea but i manage to swim i manage to survive so its a start for me. The start of something that i've been wantings. Its an eye opener and its definitely not as easy as i think as hey nothing is easy in this world. But i don't think i cant cause i think i can. I know i can and the only thing that i need to be STRONG and i know i can be strong and tough.

I'm a tough girl right? Yes i am and next week its gonna be a tougher week but i can do this. The people there is friendly is a home and everyone is like a family. Hopefully it stays that way. I'm still adjusting though. Hopefully i will get comfortable. Comfortable but i know my limits.

So yeah till then peeps. I still cant wait to meet you and i know you know that i'm always here. Will keep you updated. Lotsa love.

Last day :) or :( ???

2010-05-01T12:59:00.003+08:00

Finally the day i have been waiting for since last year when i started working there. Since i started knowing that things isn't as pretty as what it looks like or i imagine it to be. The ugly office politics the irritating user has finally come to an end. Am i happy or am i sad?

I would love to say Thank you to My boss my supervisor my colleague who has made this one year worthwhile. Though they didn't read my blog but i still wanna say that i appreciate the knowledge that you guys have thought me. Though there were lots of politics here and there but no matter what you guys are great colleague.

I'm excited, nervous, happy and scared for Monday. Excited cause i'm finally starting to do what i really love and the journey that i have always been waiting to embark. Finally. Scared that i will have politics again that my manager or my colleagues don't like me or they are like those "dengki" types. Happy to make new colleagues/friends. Nervous about the Job scope.

I'm starting MY career in TOURISM or should i say HOTEL at Four Seasons Hotel! Pretty much ecstatic! When there is nothing there is totally nothing when there is something there is an OPTION. Was given another offer by Holiday Inn but i did not accept the offer i don't want to use the word "reject" since they are super nice to me.

It was not easy for me to get into Four Seasons Hotel as i have to go through 4 people. The HR manager then MY manager which is Department manager then Director of Division then General Manager. After all that then i got the great news you see. So that was pretty much tough for me, After that i get to meet My team leader and she is an absolutely friendly person and willing to teach me alot she show me around after my signing of acceptance letter. Get to meet my Manager again and she congratulates me and welcome me. I feel so at home the Comfort that they shower me. So i HOPE that it will stay this way but then again I'm PREPARED for any challenges. Therefore to conclude i am excited for my FIRST day of work. Praying that everything will be fine.

Going out later to get some stuff and to meet Afni and Haz. I really miss you and cant wait to meet up.

Ouh yeah i will definitely miss my ex-colleague like Paul, Rab, Vincent and ERIC!!! It will not be the same again.

Finally!!!

2010-04-28T07:59:00.003+08:00

At last I'm so so happy that finally i feel secured leaving this horrible place. I'm glad, overwhelmed by the opportunities given to me. Even though it's not the position that i wanted but at least i will be given the Career opportunities to groom towards my dream. No words can describe how happy and excited to embark on the new journey. The journey that I've been waiting for. My journey.

I would like to say lots of Thanks to all my friends that has been the most supporting friends ever like really. Thank you for the prayers and the motivations. And thank you for believing in me. Haha like award winning speech.

So where am i going? Will update soon.

Cant wait to meet you!

Down down down

2010-04-20T09:37:00.004+08:00

Have not been myself lately. I'm so stress, paranoid, worried and lots of 'what if'. Waiting for something that you are not sure gonna be yours is so tiring. To date I'm not sure where I'm going after 30th April. I know it's not a major problem it's not a big thing but it's BIG for me. Never mind la. It's just not easy for me.

Thank you Eric for being there when I need a friend the most. Thank you for putting the words of encouragement, wiping my tears, hugging me even though i push you away, believing in me and bear with me. Though you are such an arsehole. Don't be so nice can? What if I fall in love with you? Haha. You are really a good best friend! Your ex-gf is so stupid to let you go, you have the looks, the brain and the heart. What more does she want? I will pray that you'll get a good soulmate.

Thank you to the rest of my friends for the concern really appreciate it.
I'm gonna be okay and gonna be fine I'm pretty sure something good will come.Let's all pray for the best. You are my source of motivation wherever you are I miss you and will update you.

XOXO

Excercise

2010-04-15T15:23:00.003+08:00

Okay i admit that i have not been excersing since i left ITE which means only last year. But this year i have been excercising starting to even though i'm so damn lazy. But why cant people just believe that i actually excercise? Ok my excercise is atleast 2 times a week brisk walking for an hour. Ok i didnt plan to tell this to anyone meaning like announcing this or something.

I know that people around me meant well they want me to excercise for my own good and health but its kind of irritating when people start asking me to. The thing that mades me wonder is why when my Ms P&C advises me i totally listen to her and updating her on my pace and all. I didnt even feel sad or depressed. Maybe the way she tell me to or maybe i'm bias i love her more then "other people". Its not its just that i feel so super duper irritated like is there anything else you can tell me to do? I am excercising okay! I am, I am! I'm not dieting like really dieting but i'm controlling on what goes in. Like a friend say " What goes in the lips goes in the hip!" and doing that dance. Please i'm not doing this to be sexy or something but to be fit and healthy.

Seriously i dont want to tell anybody i'm excercising but ah this people really making me lose my confidence you know and it's depressing. Very i must say.

I have my own goals. Ok i understand you all care about me i know u all meant well and all but please believe me when i say that i DO i really DO. You might not see the changes yet but soon slowly but surely.

This few days has been so depressing and feeling so hanging not knowing where you are going after 30th April really sucks. Please dont put more pressure for me right now. I need to focus on one first. There is so much i want to do but all were delayed because of this.

Only she can make me happy and cheer me up and believe in me. She who inspire! Cant wait to see her. :)

XOXO

Fuck You - Lily Allen

2010-04-12T09:48:00.006+08:00

Girls like guys that loves to tease them that are 'bad boy' type or naughty2 type. But what they don't realize about this kind of guy that when it comes to the girl that they really love they don't have the confidence to go further either they think that they are not financially stable as girls this days only wants money or maybe they need more courage to do that. Maybe not all of this kind of guys are like that but some really are.

Girls don't really go crazy over quiet guys or good guys the nerdy computer freaks. But actually this kind of guys are the ones that got a stable relationships faster not all but most.

My point is actually I don't understand why the more 'bad/naughty' the guy seems to be the more the girls like.

I'm glad that I've been given the opportunity to listen to the guy side of story. Cause most of my close friends are girls and I'm the kind that are more comfortable sharing problems/secrets with my girlfriends I rarely have guy friends that are close and that we can share probs and bitch and given the princess treatment so yeah. To my friend I know and understand your feelings. But I feel so sorry for the girl cause she is stupid to let a great guy like u go. We rarely see a guy so devotedly in love with ONE girl and u are among the few ones she is just plainly stupid and blind to not know that. There is always reason that God did this it's a blessing in disguise. God don't give you what you WANT because he believes in giving what you NEED. So please have faith in him and start believing. When you finally open your eyes and realize what you need then only he will guide you to that path.

I basically have no mood to update blog no mood to do most thing because I'm very much stress on finding a job. And it's so tiring to find one. I'm not asking for much just a descent job will do.
And another thing is i really can't wait to leave this place. Too much already. They just went overboard. Seeking for my understanding when the rest never do their part? Then why must i? But i still do understand very much. My last day i wanna sing FUCK YOU by Lily Allen can? Or should i sing this during Luncheon next week in front of the whole team. Ouh why not. Good idea good idea. "Fuck you (Fuck you) Fuck you very very much. Cause we hate what you do and we hate your whole crew so please don't stay in touch." Ouh i like this song very much.

It has been a month and I have been waiting for the day to update her but sadly I don't really have good news or news that she want to hear. But i still will as promise is a promise. And i cant wait to meet her. God willing?
My life is not as Hip and Happening as it used to be or maybe just for now. We shall see what happen next month.

Hopefully i get some good news. InsyaAllah.

Sharing is caring.

2010-04-03T23:04:00.002+08:00

Been neglecting this space of mine. I have not been THAT busy cause i've been lazing around the whole week. Lazy to work this and that but i still do certain things and i need a harder push i need more motivation and i need more fighting spirit.

Since this topic has been very famous all week let me share my sincere and honest opinion but well what i say may not mean anything, what i say may not matters and what i say may not be important but this is my blog my say so just keep on reading.

Heard and always know that even if you're married that does not mean you are happy and faithful. Okay and since people around me have been saying to me that don't trust men indirectly don't give them everything meaning don't love them and making them your priority when they only see you as an option and blah, blah blah. Making you mentally prepared on what's going on later just standby and be prepared. So most of my friends that have talk or shared about this knows that i don't mind sharing. Since you somehow knows that they are going to cheat you they are going to hurt your feelings you might as well be prepared with an open mind.

You put on hopes and thinking that somehow it will not happen i rather be mentally, emotionally and physically prepared. I'm not saying sharing husband is nice and not painful but its rather less painful than you getting cheated and feelings got torn apart because you have given everything, putting hopes and only sees him/her in your eyes thinking and believing that nothing is going to happen and you guys are going to be happily ever after. That's my opinion. Of cause we hopes for the best but if fated we have to be prepared. So 1st, 2nd, 3rd of 4th wife? Haha.

I still haven't gotten any good news to share with my Ms P&C hopefully i can give her a good news soon and hopefully praying so hard that someone will give me an opportunity to make a start.

Today has been quite an angry day for me. Really angry and i actually screwed a lot of people today. Really. So yeah this is the last month and i cant wait like really really. I think or maybe its just me that she has issues with me. She as in my supervisor. I don't know what i do wrong but i sense some jealousy around.

I've given some people a chance to make it up but yet they still screw it up so yeah my friend the next time or will there be next time for you?

I think this post is quite confusing haha actually i'm always confusing. Take care all and Good night. Sleepy ~~~~~~~~~~~~

Quick quick quicky

2010-03-25T20:18:00.006+08:00

I want to do some ranting. So here it goes okay life as at now! What's happening to me? Still finding job now and its so frustrating here is my prayers to God "Ouh God please help me find a good job? I'm a good girl so please please pretty please give me a job that i can experience what i've learn? It don't have to be a good job you can teach me in the way that you always do the hard way. Like this job now that you've given me. I know somehow its a blessing. I know you love me and you know i love you. God thank you!" Okay that is a bit too cute and dramatic but anyway i am cute and drama queen.

Yes i'm resigning with or without a new job. That is because die die i need to work by May 4th and if i don't tender now and wait till i get a new job then i need to prepare $7000, any sponsors? Well i rather you sponsor my degree.So yes you heard me, it has been a wonderful a year and a month. Full of ups and down no doubt pain sorrows and more that i can never ever imagine. I will definitely miss my own craziness and even if its so difficult to say but i will miss my different/unique/weird colleagues.

I need to know if i belong in the company(sense of belonging) i need to know I'm worth(motivation) and i need appreciation. I don't feel it in HP and its not HP its the project. Maybe its not them its me. This few days i feel so sad i really feel like smacking my supervisor real hard behind that smile and laughter there is this anger building up. I cant be in an environment that basically the superiors cant do anything about people that have been getting the same pay as me but don't earn it. I cant stand anymore watching this happening and making the rest of my colleague feeling down and having this "heck care" and if they can do it why cant i. I want to leave in peace i want to leave nicely. I want to made my last month worth and as happy as possible. I forget to mention i will miss my users very much especially those that knows me and will look for me if they have ANY problem be it NEW or old. I will miss my lovely users. I feel better after saying it here.

Finding jobs is not easy especially if you are finding one that has career opportunities and that you see yourself in for the next few years maybe. So if i cant get a job was thinking that a cleaner at Sentosa? Consider tourism industry right? Haha ok NO of cause i don't want it to happen. So please God? With the cute cute face.

Enough about work. Studies okay I've made plans i think okay i think i have decide which degree to take. I think only i still need some advise on this from my Ms P&C when i meet her which i don't know when but soon hopefully.Ouh yeah bout that i cant wait to update her. I cant wait to go back studying i miss studying really.

So yeah Forest friends update ForestQin finally is doing something that she wants and all the best to her and i cant wait to see you after 8 months. ForestZeyma don't care about what people say follow your heart babe. What happen to others does not mean it will happen to you study smart babe and get your diploma. Its not about how long you get it, its how hard you want it. We believe and i believe that you will succeed so all the best to your diploma in RP lepas da blajar jgn nak kahwin straight plak haha.

So i've been telling myself to do this and do that but am i doing it? Saiyidah, Girl, Babe, Sayang, Darling actions speaks louder than words? Remember? Okay self note.

I will really miss my Jassy jasmin mean meany Arsehole aka Eric liew. We will go out and bitch around okay and i didnt know from Hate i now love him. Okay not that love. Love as a friend as an elder brother haha. False alarm people i don't fall in love so easy, you don't think you can get me so easy. I'm not but i'm not that HARD either. So yeah figure me out. Don't assume cause i hate it. You don't know how much i hate men that knowing i have to love men in the end its sucks that kind of feeling? yeah its confusing okay no actually its simple i'm just making things difficult. Okay crap i'm crapping.

So much of a quick quick quick. My hearts want to do a lot of things but okay no but i will do it!!!!

Wish me all the best in finding a job soon and all the best to me in deciding what to study. All the best to people around me also.

Having chest pain. I cant wait to meet you! You're the best.

Chalet with the Diploma mates :) Fun?

2010-03-21T13:09:00.003+08:00

If you ask me whether i had lots of fun like really alot... The answer is NO. I had fun only till 11pm that also i think there was some dissapointment here and there. Well we can only plan to make it work but overall everyone has to play their part in making it work.

Honestly if you ask me if i will help out to organise another chalet in 6 months time... My answer is NO. I'm really afraid to be disappoint again. Its not about the money i think for all of us $30 is nothing.

What made's me feel so disappointed is some of them don't even inform us until we actually ask them and keep calling them. Then they mention that they are not coming atleast to the very least could just inform us. We've used up all of the money buying food thinking that they will come atleast we are already assured with the sum of money given by them. The food was wasted there were so many leftovers. We had a debate on this after the rest have left at 11pm.

Nvm about those that totally didn't show up. Those that was saying earlier that they will be staying over when we were buying all the Tidbits did not stay. Well we've already bought so much tidbits whatever that they ask for thinking that we will all eat up at night but instead it was not touched the food was then again wasted. Just because of one then the rest did not stay. That is another disappointment. I'm only talking about those that promise earlier.

Okay if we were to have another gathering in 6 months time we will not even bother to invite those that never show their faces on 20th March. This time round we will do it in a smaller chalet like Costa Sand Downtown east. "The chalet so big also for what?" If you are not happy then go somewhere else. I don't care i think we do have the right to be disappointed and angry.

Orang melayu selalu ckp "Jangan serik" tapi saye da "Serik" serik nak tolong organise lagi.

Overall we did some bonding for awhile and i did have fun and enjoy myself and i think you can see how much some are really keen about keeping in touch with others.

Thank you for those that helps to buy things at Giant and made us buy more, Thank you to those that drives around to get things, Thank you to Ms Norintan who came as promise and a BIG thank you to those that helps to clear things up at the Chalet just now.

Next round of chalet will just be US if you think that you are one of US then maybe you are that depends btw.

Lesson learnt is always expect the unexpected and don't hope so much people will just kill it.

I cant wait to update you and you know what you are always right. You are the best.

Saturday. Sunday. Sunburnt. Roasted Pig.

2010-03-16T09:34:00.003+08:00

If you feel like eating Halal Certified Roasted Pig come and bite me :P HAHA.

Seriously though sunday was hot and then cold i still get sunburnt.WTH. Yeah i had a great time with the Forest friends at Sentosa BBQ-ing and some people really never see food before.

But somehow i feel something is mising like the feeling i have when i was looking forward for it was more fun then the real thing. I dont know what was i dissapointed about. Overall it was still fun but the rain kinda spoil it abit.

And ouh yeah i hate to go Sentosa on weekends with full of urgh! NVM.

I hate that look that you gave me STOP looking at me like that.

*Cant wait to update you*

Motivation. Inspiration. I'm a Happy Girl.

2010-03-13T07:56:00.002+08:00

I'm a happy girl for no matter what it is. Haha okay if you know me you will know that i am a Happy Girl. Right? The one that does not have any problem the one that does not know what is misery sadness pain and sorrow. Okay sidetrack a bit and back to the story.

Finally the call that I've been waiting for months haha. Its not a job its more important and exciting then that. To just hear the "Hello Saiyidah!" can made me Happy for the next 3 months. At least i know she is here but she knows that I'm always there which is good la.

Met her for an hour what can i say she don't have the window of time always, a busy women indeed. But i really Thank God for this 1 hour and i cherish and treasure every "expensive" moment i have with her.

People around me always says or like give that expression like why I'm always so super duper excited its not that I'm meeting MY boyfriend. Let me explain because she is one of the Good People that God have send to me, she have inspire me a lot and motivates me a lot in many ways that i really appreciate her existence in my life, she is as important as my family and the rest of my friends, we does not always meet but she always knows how to surprise me and makes me really excited, she made lecturing and advising as fun and as cute as possible so that it goes in the head and stay there. She's different. So yeah.

That's the best Friday i have for this month! Today i will be watching Alice in wonderland 3D! Yeh awesomeness!!! My March weekends is the best so far. I so love weekends and Sunday Birthday Celebration cum picnic @ Sentosa with Forest Friends! I love my friends and also family of cause like duh.

I'll keep you updated and i will start doing it! Till our next meeting. :D

Awesome Weekend! :P

2010-03-08T08:35:00.002+08:00

When you told me you love me do you really mean it? Okay this is so random.

Had a blast weekend! I love my weekend like really. So Saturday we finally went out and watch movie and talk, Gossips, laugh and eat. Haha. We is Ivy, Neville, Evan and Me. How i wish right now both Ivy and Neville wont read my blog. I think and think after awhile that i cant write what i feel like writing/saying there is too much thoughts of what if i say something wrong and it will hurt people. So yeah maybe i should private my blog so that only me and me can read it. But the thought that no one else read it really sucks but heck i still need to think about this.

Back to my awesome weekend after we watch Ivy had to go and all so yeah i went to accompany Neville to buy his guitar. It was fun get to see Neville playing guitar he is Talented and so was the salesperson he should be right? If not he cant sell his products well. Had fun at Yamaha till the shop close.

Sunday went shopping with Nurul bebeh bought a lot of stuff using the Voucher that i receive for getting compliments. I want more voucher means more compliments can? I dont want complain you want to complain you go somewhere else.

My next weekends will be Birthday Celebration for Forest Zeyma! Watching Alice in wonderland with Afni bebeh and the other bebehs not confirm yet. Then the following weekend will be chalet! Yeh!

Weekend = Happy, Weekdays = Angry+ Crazy.

Still waiting woohooo! Its worth i know.

When you feel like dying, SING!

2010-03-03T15:01:00.002+08:00

So every time i feel like dying and down i shall sing! Yeh sing sing sing i love to sing!

Some people just doesn't deserve your care and concern! Lately i just feel like killing a lot of people if only i can, i will. Ouh yeah i so will kill YOU and YOU and YOU and a lot of YOU.

Looking forward for weekends like seriously. Cant wait to go shopping with Nurul Laini! Meet Ivy and maybe Sophia on Saturday! I wanna relax and relax.

I don't care what you think of me because you are too much you crossed the line. I don't wanna bring back the past don't make me babe.

I know its worth waiting if only you are here so tha i can confide to you.

You dont know me so dont assume.

2010-02-28T12:53:00.003+08:00

Don't assume you know me cause my friend i don't think you know me well. I guess i stop there at this very first line. I want to continue telling my story but what for? I don't need sympathy i don't like to brag about this. I don't like being sad. I may seem to appear to be a pampered daughter that has no pains no sorrows but you are wrong my friend. I don't need to elaborate on this if you know me well you know my problems.

I'm not that kind of person who likes to share my problems especially if its family issues. My problem might not be as big as yours if we were to compare it in piles it may not be as huge as yours but i still have problems. My point is everyone has problem. I'm sure you are mature enough to know.

I might not be as smart you may not write well or express well as you but i can still think and understand well enough. Please don't accuse me like that like i don't know pain i don't know sorrows just because you think i have everything i want I'm a pampered daughter.

No matter what you are the attitude and all you are still my friend. I do and am proud of having you as my friend thinking to myself that you are a strong girl that if i were in your positions i might not know what to do. I don't know what you will think of me after reading this because i just thought that you should know what i think and feel because i don't think i can tell you face to face cause i might not have the chance to do that without having to be interrupt.

Friends stop whining and start embracing for all you know God have he reasons on giving you this kind of obstacle in life. I know and understand that "cakap senang. Berat mata memandang berat lagi bahu yang memikul." This goes to me also stop whining Saiyidah, Stop complaining Saiyidah.

So yesterday went out for a movie! From Paris with love was awesome. Went to watch this with Afni, Lisa and Haz Bebeh. Had fun did some catching up with Haz and Afni after movie. I love my classmates sadly Nurul and Aidah has work. Cant wait for our Class chalet. Yeh!

Okay I'm still waiting cause i know its worth waiting! Will see you all when i see you all.

Pain.Sorrows.Lean on me.

2010-02-26T07:49:00.005+08:00

This week is the most craziest week so far. The most hectic week its end of month, there's end of month report, end of month meeting and the boss is stress so yeah. Saya penat penat penat penat okay semua penat but saya tak kisah ni blog saya jadi saya sorang penat orang lain tak! haha. Ok i shall translate this i'm tired tired tired tired okay everyone is tired but i don't care its my blog so I'm the only one who is tired others don't! haha

So many things happen that i want to say it here i want to express my feelings i need to do that but tak boleh nak kena jage hati dan perasaan orang. Abih bile orang nak jage hati dan perasaan kite? Besok, lusa, tahun depan? Susah la. I'm fed-up with alot of people lately. Ouh yeah now i know why i'm so angry and frustrated with people and easily annoyed this days haha. PMS.

So since this week was a hectic week and all i've been having an "unhealthy" lifestyle at work. Being sadistic. HAHA. Kesian i pity this guy colleague of mine always kena bully by me and when he tries to bully me or disturb me he fails! Boooooo. Lucky i have fun fun fun colleague. So there u go my love hate relationship with my "Special Gay friend". Haha.

Okay Bye for now will update when i'm free again. Its so tired to be angry all the time! Somebody please cheer me up!!!

Love.Life.Laugh

2010-02-21T15:26:00.002+08:00

Love is not just about accepting the good of the other but also the bad learning to accept the flaws. Truth really hurts sometime but it's better to live with the Truth rather than lies. That's my view :)

Though I'm sick of this i really have to control. I don't want to tell you off i don't always agree with you and silence does not always mean yes. Maybe someone else will tell you off but that person is definitely not me. You are a good friend but no doubt nobody is perfect in this world. You will learn. I'm not the right person.

I always remind myself that no matter who I'm gonna be next or where I'm gonna be not to forget where i belong. I'm not writing this to tell you that I'm a humble girl/lady/women but just to remind myself time and again.

Okay this week has been a short one i haven't really starting to do what i'm suppose to do. Work has been as boring as ever what a comeback and they certainly knows how to welcome me back by giving a Network outage. They cant access the Internet. Haha. The question is when will it be back up?

Hoping for a good week! I love GLEEEEEEE!

I will wait for you and i certainly miss you.

Can somebody find me to Looooveeeee!

Batam Rabeah's house coolness

2010-02-16T17:37:00.012+08:00

When we reach I was kinda relieve to see such a peaceful place. It's like whatever stress whatever problem was just left back in SG. Here was cooling I could hear the birds chirp the leaves blowing and making kinda melody with it. I feel so grateful to be here witnessing God's creation what a wonderful beautiful place. Being back to nature just feel so calm.

Rabeah's family was very nice I just feel at home everyone here was super caring. Other than me Rab brings her friend along and her name is Nisa! She is easy to get along with so it’s not awkward to talk to i just feel like i know her for ages. The first night that I'm here there were some kampung guys singing songs. I realize that here all the Guys can certainly sing. They were singing the night away and strumming the guitar by the jetty... It was lovely at first but after that it was kinda disturbing cause I was trying to sleep. Rabeah got a lot of fans here singing and trying to get her attention.

They were singing a song Jika by Melly Goeslow so here’s the lyrics that they have change:

“Jika teringat tentang beah, jauh di mata dekat di hati!....” Rabeah was furious because of this and that we were disturbing her! It’s cute though at least I think it is. So that’s THE song of the trip! Adding that song to my playlist later....

The morning wakes me with the Azan around as there was a mosque nearby the village. It feels so good :))) we went over to the jetty to see the nature and feel the wind blowing it was superb. We then plan to be back there at night to do some star gazing... After which we had breakfast by the balcony that we can totally see the sea....

I got injured with some scars when I was trying to get down to the sea... Ouch it totally hurts me :((((

So they say that it's a souvenirs from Batam was clumsy and I can't walk properly it was bad but I don't want to spoil my trip I therefore persevere till the end.

Was limping my way to the so called bukit for some awesome view! There's a golf course nearby and it's seriously fantastic over there. We took some jump shots there was reluctant at first to jump when i was ask to due to my injured leg but i thought since I’m jumping ah just jump i don’t give damn! Haha but after that my leg got worst.

Did some shopping and sightseeing as it's not my intention to shop I didn't really do much :) We went over to Nagoya Hill and get to eat A&W it has been ages since i ate that. Miss the Float the most as i cant remember what food they offer besides the hotdog. I still remember my 5th or 6th birthday was celebrated at A&W. That was a long time ago. Okay back to Batam...

Had lots of fun at Rabeah's house! Met this cute little kid it's her neighbour was playing with him he was teaching me how to "lastik" it was sooooo fun :) shooting stones to the sea and see who got the further one :) This is the sane activities I'm having :) Well actually the Kids there were shooting the fish how great. Was thinking of just staying there and not going home but then again what am i suppose to do there to earn a living? Fishermen? Haha or marry a fishermen? This is only for a getaway i don’t want to leave there forever. Haha!

So after our sightseeing to the mall :p we went back quite late and it was already dark when I say late it was only 7 plus had our dinner and we off to the most sexciting place!!! At first we were reluctant to go because the “Talented guys” are already sitting at the spot. But heck i force Rab to go because we won’t get a chance in SG.

Took our mat, camera and we went straight to the jetty since the end was already occupied with the "talented guys" we went to the middle and lay the mat and straight away look up OMG it was indescribable. Staring into the depths of infinity and marvelling at how gorgeous + sparkly the stars are. Its amazing I can't even find any in SG!!! Then suddenly there are fireworks across the other side and I manage to take some photos breath taking I'm only in a village and I get to experience these beautiful/magnificent views ... I wish to stay here longer god’s creation is really something... Well i did mention this to Rab “Babe i never regret forcing you sey!” Haha and we all laugh we were charmed by the view and so overwhelmed.

The next morning is time to go home! Was feeling very reluctant to go home wish to stay there longer :) had one last time posing and taking lots of pictures. Kiss this shahrul boy before us all leave aww so sadddd.... This boy was holding on to my leg not wanting me to go home such a cheeky little boy...

Had one last look at the place before bidding goodbye to everyone there they were so so nice making us feel at home :))))

Then back to where I belong :(( back to the stress, to the city!!! How boring???...

"Will meet you when i meet you!" Waiting patiently!

Last but not least

2010-02-12T20:50:00.002+08:00

This will be my last post for this long weekend/holidays! I'll be leaving for Batam tommorow and will be back dont worry on Monday! Hopefully i will enjoy my short Getaway for some sane activities before i go insane.

Today is 12 Feb! Someone's Birthday! So here's to the man that always love to tease, bully, disturb others but caring and loving to his Friends and Family Happy Birthday to you! Good wishes and Happy happy returns of the day! The most important thing that everyone cant wait is.... to give us some good news okay? Haha finally the man is in .....???!!!! Okay Collin age is just numbers dont worry! It's never too late to do anything and you have already prove that!

To all my Chinese Friends Happy happy new year! Have a prosperous Lunar New Year! The year of Tiger! ROAAARRRRR Tiger roar right? Haha.

To the rest Have a great long weekend enjoy and have a restful one!

Its the month of love lets all celebrate this Joyous moment together! Happy Valentine's day to those that celebrate!

Batam here i come!!!!! "Will meet you when i meet you!"

Kill me dun kill me!

2010-02-10T08:05:00.003+08:00

Sometime certain things are just not worth fighting for!

It does not matter whether you are celebrity, hotstar, superstar, politicians, big shots, small fry after all you are all human being still. So please the word RESPECT is not that difficult to understand.

I still found this conversation cool and kelakar seram so here it goes:

me - "Please kill me!"

Tuan puteri - "Why?"

me- " Because we Muslim cannot commit suicide what... so i need/want someone to kill me..."

Tuan puteri - " Then since when Muslim can kill people?!!!"

me- "ouhhh yeahhhh hahahahahaha good point..."

Tuan puteri - "Merepek... da giler eh?"

Moral of the story don't ask a Muslim to kill you! Haha okay! Then i realise i still love me and i don't want to die so early o young. I still want to get married! Haha and also feel that feeling of being in LOVE then taste what's like to be heartbroken! I also have not achieve my dream yet. So now i want to take care of myself better. To be able to introduce at my blog the one and only that has successfully finally open the doors to my heart. Still a long way la.

Okay la back to work! I'm tired..... Faster WEEKENDS! Batam.....

"Will meet you when i meet you!"

Karaoke OKay!

2010-02-08T08:23:00.002+08:00

Been going out lately from friday all the way to Sunday. Release the stress and the negativity. I must enjoy myself during the weekends if not i will go crazy.

So met Ivy on Friday! Accompany her to shopping for the New year clothes. Finally get to see the feminine side of her :p Now i understand why she does not want to dress up for class. HAHA. Okay nvm ivy dress up for the Guy you love. :p Had fun sharing stories with her and saying we miss class very much.

Saturday was suppose to be a Bridesmaid for Kak Nonie but i messed up and am sorry for that. I still attend the wedding though but was late. I get to see her wearing the last baju only. But she look so alluring, elegant and gorgeous! Selamat Pengantin Baru! Semoga kekal hingga ke anak cucu! woohooo....

Sunday plan was to stay at home rest and sleep and rest and sleep and watch my Gossip Girls. But tempted to go out when Nurul and Alisa call me :p

So then we went to Karaoke last min plan and book the room! Wooo best that is totally a release tension sey! Finally get to listen Alisa and Nurul We sang preety well. After that we head to Dempsey to finally visit my Sis workplace and finally get to taste her cook. We also had Ben n Jerry again! Woohooo i love BnJ! Overall i had an awesome weekend! Not enough rest but fun!

Yesterday was Monday.... Monday bluesssss it was an okay day for me just okay... Meet up with Nurul, Afni and Haz for Dinner at Bugis as i have to buy something there. Get to meet Haz and i'm sooooo happppyyyy... Did some catch up with them talk gossip and more gossip haha. We all cant wait for the chalet.

And i, i cant wait for the Looooonnnnngggggg weekend that is coming! I'm going Batam to a friend's house and it's a Girlfriend. Because when i told some of my friends that i'm going Batam they were thinking differently. But yeh a short getaway is what i NEED. I need to tighten up some screws and get some things straight. Before it goes Haywire! Since i got no date this Valentine's day i dont want to stay at Singapore there is no reason to stay here. Hahaha sound so disappointed like as if someone broke my heart. Or did someone broke my heart? I'm not sure also. Let me figure this out at Batam. HAHA. I feel so ecstatic, elated, gay though i know its only Batam. But who cares i still am so sexcited.

Will post the pictures later. Its gonna be a loooonnnggg day!

Bebehs i hate to say this or i hate myself for saying this "Will see you all when i see you all!"

To someone that LOVE to say this "Will see you when i see you!"

Thinking of ending it

2010-02-04T21:46:00.002+08:00

The thing about complaining, about sighing every single day we wake up. The thing about lying to yourself that it's okay when it's not. The thing is everyone is not happy. But are we doing anything about it. Is it the money really worth waiting. Is the name really worth? Is it really worth staying? Are they really worth?

Th pain that WE remember it's we here that we're talking about really worth it? Staying late everyday? Sacrifice and burning yourself really worth?

Truly honestly I'm tired of having to feel what i feel everyday and having everyone else reminding it. It really sucks. Having to hear nothing but complains every seconds really sucks.

We always hear we always says "DO SOMETHING! DO SOMETHING?" But is there changes? Is there improvements. Yes we have to admit we do have issues. We really do. Doing something and acting on it must have "real actions" that can be seen.

Today just prove that I'm really "Famous". "They" are talking about me spelling my name and pronouncing it. Wow if you have issues with me bitch you can always come and look for me! No one else have something against me but that bitch. One day we will meet face to face and then you will realise that why am i so jealous about this girl. She is nothing! I'm really nothing bitch. I'm just a "small" girl by saying small not the size i mean i know where i stand by age i mean. Who is seriously nothing compare to you the Manager. The government manager the in charge the one who has the say. You only hear my voice so stop judging me. Indirectly or somehow i really feel proud of myself like omg the managers are talking about me. By saying talking means all the bad things. Look on the bright side atleast i'm famous. Hah I'm just trying to comfort myself. But from where I'm seeing this bitch is finding fault with me because she is just plainly jealous. I have my reasons on why i said that. But its okay i will MAKE SURE you will not hear anything from me again. I will ensure that everything is fine from today.

If no one dares to made CHANGES if no one dares to say it out. I'll be the first! I will prove to this people that we are not what they think we are. We can do it. After all they will know where is all the faults come from. The real problem that they are facing. After this the vendor wont have the chance to sit back and relax cause I'm going to haunt them everyday every hour every minutes every seconds of their life till they know what they are facing. They don't mess with me. I just shoot one bullet just now but after this i can come arm with machine guns.

I will made the stay worth i will made the money worth. I will made everything worth and nothing to regret about. I will made and live every seconds meaningful for the rest of my stay. I will remind myself everyday that I'm going for a war and i have to win or atleast protect and shield us from being treated like some shit. We can do it I can do it!

Tomorrow is another day. Lets remind our self to start a day with positive and energetic mind.

I definitely miss my classmates. I miss my Bebehs! Afni is out of town, Nurul is busy working, lisa is busy with something else, Haz is busy working, Aidah is also busy working and her daughter, Siti is busy with her family and working. Everyone is busy, we are far yet so close in the heart. Planning for a girls day out together with Ivy, Sophia and Geraldine yet to discuss the date.

I miss my cikgu! Still waiting. "Will meet you when i meet you." She is busy also.

I need a massage! Someone please massage me?

Kill me!

2010-02-03T21:59:00.006+08:00

Stop trying to be someone/something you're not. Just be yourself. Things will come in a way just how you wanted You don't have to force. Let it come by.

Stop and start doing what you love do it with passion. Stop the hate start the love. Stop the fake start the truth. Be yourself every and anywhere.

Throw away the tense build a new you. Stop judging and start loving. Only then will you realise whatever that you've been blinded off.

I'm in a love-hate relationship. I need some faith. Wish me luck. :D

I need to know whether is it worth waiting?

Kuasa lilahi :D

2010-02-02T21:00:00.008+08:00

Kalau kite ade masalah dan kite luahkan nye dengan menceritakan masalah kite tu separuh dari beban yg kite pikul dgn sendirinye akan hilang. Itu la yg aku selalu lakukan. Dade kite akan lapang, hati kite akan tenang walaupun masalah kite tu blum lagi selesai.Peri pentingnye kite meluahkan masalah kite. Tak kisah la pade sesiape pun. Dalam dunia nie semua manusia dibelungi masalah tak kire la masalah kite tu lebih berat dari orang lain.

Aku akan lebih tenang jike dapat meluahkan ape yg aku rase tanpe rase ralat. Aku rimas diperhatikan seolah-olah tiade ruang untuku bernafas. Tetapi ketenangan yg aku rase adelah bile aku bersujud kepada lilahi. Cinte yg aku rase amat iklas suci dan tenang adelah cinta terhadap Allah.

Tibe-tibe hati ini meronta-ronta ingin meluahkan ape yg terpendam. Terlalu banyak telah ku pendam telah ku beku. Aku rimas kerana tidak jujur dengan perasaan ku sendiri. Aku bosan aku rimas kerana menipu pade diri ku sendiri. Aku yg salah aku yg telah memasang tembok dan tidak sudi untuk menjadi diri ku sendiri. Aku tidak mahu merasa dan aku menipu dan aku tidak berhak menyalahkan sesiape. Aku tidak mahu lagi berpura-pura. Aku telah bersedia! Bersedia untuk berjuang!

Tidak pernah terlintas di fikiran ku sebelum ini untuk meluahkan ape yg aku rase selama ini dan sebergini.

Bersukurla ape yg kite ade kerane mungkin ape yg kite hadapi orang-orang di sekililing mempunyai masalah yg lebih teruk dari kite. Aku telah berjaye memahami masalah ku ini.

Harta, dendam, hasad dengki, iri hati tak akan membawa kite kemane2 sadarlah bangunlah wahai teman2 ku.

Senyum la walaupun senyuman yg kite beri amat perik rasanye. Hirup la terima la ape yg telah diberi angapla ini sebagai ujian darinye.

Salam sayang

Saiyidah

The day i felt appreciated!

2010-02-01T14:22:00.002+08:00

After month of working here finally today is the DAY i've been waiting for. God has answered my prayers. Felt so grateful plus so happy jumped for joy and everything else that could explain happiness. $180 is quite an amount for me.

After lunch all the calls that i received was fun for me. To hear a man saying "Girl you're my saviour" is really something even if it means an old man. HAHA. Hearing "I called earlier and spoke to 2 men but problem still persist and when i speak to u the problem is solved. I called the wrong person just now." And having them insisting to wait for me is really great. I feel so appreciated!

Though today was like a Public holiday here in the office. I still feel so awesome! Having to shoot back to people that has always bully us is so fun! Being famous for the wrong reasons sometimes is cool also. Everything that happen do certainly have a reasons to it!

I feel like dancing already! This is like a good start of February! Looking forward for surprises! Please! Please surprise me!

"Will meet you when i meet you."

The 9 Months Love :)

2010-01-28T12:49:00.014+08:00

The 9 months love that i have hopefully will continue. Will always keep in touch with them :D Meeting and getting to know them was one of the best thing that ever happen last year :P

Though we are all sad that is over but we are also happy that we've finally Graduated! Time flies very fast! Seriously we all love each other! HAHA especially Neville and Ivy.

I may not know all the 25 of them inside out but i certainly know some and they are wonderful people that I've known. We will keep on keeping in touch and knowing more of each other. Will be missing the fun, the jokes, the bullying and everything else.

Yesterday at Hard Rock was the most memorable night ever! With Neville and Ivy "Getting married" and when is that? "Soon very soon" haha But really it was very happening there :P Though Ivy was so shy, Neville was quite ON and serious about it. Hopefully they really be together :)

OMG its really super duper fast and it still hard to accept it. And tomorrow i have to go to WORK its like OMG. I have to find another job soon. Which i really cant wait to start anew.

Receive some news from Ms P&C but i feel like killing her haha lucky she's ms p&c! A very busy women waiting to meet her and cant wait. Yeah I'll be good till then. "Will meet you when i meet you!" hmph

I will definitely miss the class very much. Will be missing the meeting each other mass sms to all for the meeting place before class, will be missing all the inside clean/dirty jokes we had, will be missing the debates/arguments in class, will be missing gang-up to sack trainer/ transfer classmate/ complain about everything, will be missing singing and dancing on the way to the toilet along the corridor, will be missing the giggling and laughing till tears come out, will be missing running away from classmates and meeting Ms P&C because now no need to meet secretly anymore haha. Basically will be missing lots of stuff.

Actually this post was draft since Thursday because this girl here got no mood to blog because was feeling super duper emo and lost. I guess all the good things have to end. I don't know why but this Graduation was different i never feel so sad went i graduate from my Higher Nitec or O level. Was so happy that time but this time round was different very different indeed. Hopefully we will keep in touch with each other!

So yeah went for the OA yesterday. Competent finally! For all the Modules. Ms Norintan is one of the best Trainer we ever had and we love her! Thanks for the cake. Thanks for the epok2 and the advice you gave me. You have a point and i don't blame you for your judgement. Everyone has their own opinion and so do you. But nothing will change my mind towards Ms P&C.

Knowing somethings that you wouldn't want to know kinda sucks. I should not let anything goes in my way of what i think of her. I shouldn't judge her. She trust me. I guess she must have her reason on why she acted like that with others. She have her reasons. Thinking of that really makes me confused and making me judge her which is so not good. I guess i was thinking highly of her but human beings make mistake. I'm trying my best not to judge her like really. Ouh i love her she's the best and i must think positive think of whatever she have done for me. I cant wait to meet her like really. You people must be wondering what this girl is blabbering about haha. So yeah i shall repeat this again "Will meet you when i meet you!" Waiting waiting....

I guess this is it looking forward for a good February! Will miss everyone very very much! Love you guys alot!

XOXO

Saiyidah

All the fond Memories!

2010-01-23T23:52:00.009+08:00

Another realisation made. I guess it has always been my fantasy/dream/want (OK we get it) to have a Boyfriend that can actually sing he may not be a singer but he atleast can sing pleasantly. Well its every girl dream to have a man of her own haha yup so mine it will be so GREAT if we can atleast go out and have Karaoke session will be good. That's the fantasy la.

So yeah the days are drawing near we are all counting down omg I'm actually pretty sad. But there is a happy note behind it i cant wait really to do all the stuff with ehem ehem. We all had fun we all love each other no matter how we argue and agree to disagree. We are like the most happening rocking class that TMIS ever had with the numbers of complaints we've made. We just prove to people though the age gap is huge but we blend well. We understand each other so well that we've prove that the "young adults" and "the mature ones" can go out, sit down and spout nonsense. Really gonna miss them and cant wait for the chalet lots of surprise awaits the rest.

Last Friday after WA APR we went out and have dinner together @ swensen again! haha This time are with Neville and the girls. We actually pair up Neville and Ivy together that night they were sitting together and we actually let them have their own time to get to know each other. Yeah after that Father picks me up as usual and i actually offered Neville a ride. The most interesting of all is Father asking me after dropping him home " Your Boyfriend isit?" I was like NO! Then he say " Okay what he looks descent, his Chinese though but its okay if you like him." I was like NO again. But the good thing is he is okay with me dating and dating other race/nationality. Wooohoooo! Yeh that's the green light i want! I don't want to be dating someone and not letting my family knows atleast now i know Father is okay with it. But sadly this girl here is not ready enough to get hurt, to cry over some not worthy guy to commit on a relationship. So let the time decide and we shall see if she found someone interesting. I have a long way to go want to build up on my career and not stop studying. That's the main priorities.

At the end of the course we shall see Neville and Ivy dating? Wooohooo but i actually knew something others don't. Shall keep it to myself though.

Today was a good day went to watch movie like yeh! I love watching movie la! Cleared OA APR just now. Had fun gossiping with Norintan, Aidah and Nurul. "Siapa mau buat?".... "Kasminah buk" Really cant get tired of this!

Saiyidah LOVES all the *INSIDE* jokes she had with Afni, Haz, Aidah, Nurul, Alisa and Siti gonna miss all of this soon. Knowing you guys has been really something special and the rest of the classmates too people like Collin,Evan, Neville, Sophia, Ivy, Geraldine, Mr Tang and the list continues.

Will be dating the Bebehs on Monday at Victory our first gathering together. Will keep the fond memories always. Saiyidah loves everyone!

XOXO
Saiyidah

"I'll see you when i see you!" Soon hopefully!

Saye nak menghilangkan diri!!!!

2010-01-19T08:39:00.003+08:00

I guess it's best to not know everything! I don't want to know all the things please really. Not that I'm not concern but its really too much information. Haha I'm still young!

Yesterday was the "best" day ever by saying best really it was! I got screwed by the "top" people! Top really top! I guess being famous for all the wrong reasons can be quite depressing though. I rarely have any complaints and when i got involved in this not 1 but 2 complaints and got screwed by 2 different important people is not fun at all. Only God knows what i feel yesterday. 1 word "Depressing".

These week has been the by far the most "interesting" week so far. Getting screwed, complaints, tired, knowing so many things and a lot more everything is so so just depressing for me. The most challenging week so far too much of a responsibilities.

Staying late for work as in really late till i can hear the Chinese ghost songs that i heard about. WOW scary really was in office till 8pm from 6.45am can be really major tiring. Trying my very best to be strong but i fall sick today. Its just fever and flu not having enough rest that's all but i guess i must get used to this for the next 3 months. Cant wait for this to be over like really i don't wish to speak to all that managers anymore. They are not my manager and yet they can scold me urgh i just feel like bursting that day but i keep it cool.

1 more week 2 more lessons and class is over?! Wow time flies like really fast but we are gonna be in touch. I suppose so.

This is what you get for praying for something "Sexciting" to happen but i know that the day will come as expected. I'm sitting in a row full of boys at work. I love the attention and the concern when i get mad haha and getting kisses when needed haha. Its all good and not that bad. Support is all i need.

I want to have a meaningful year and this is the year that i have been waiting for therefore i must do something major this year. Majorly meaningful but have not think about it yet. Different is what i want. As long as I'm happy i bet that's what people that Care's for me wants me to be. "As long as you are happy Saiyidah" that's what matter at the end of the day.

I cant wait but I'm sad. I cant wait but I'm sad. I cant wait but I'm sad!

"I'll see you when i see you!"

Disapointed

2010-01-16T11:28:00.003+08:00

I'm feeling disappointed and kinda down this few days. May look happy but inside only God knows. Whatever it is i will just be more patience and when yesterday i didn't go to work i really had my rest and I'm satisfied with it. I just want to live life to the fullest and worries about nothing and whatever will be will be.

Waiting for something sexciting to happen. Finally we have LGA to do for the weekends! Like woah miss doing LGAs in the weekends. Last Module like OMG time flies so damn fast. Really enjoy my time with all the Bebehs.

Stay strong Saiyidah! Still waiting! Update me please.

"I'll see you when i see you!"

Different

2010-01-12T20:52:00.005+08:00

I know it has been sometime since i update due to work. Nothing but work. Well really the busy period is not over yet it has just started. Last saturday i finally got time to go out and celebrate Bestie Firah Birthday! It has been sometime since i meet up with Bestie firah and liza then nurul also join in. Had lots of fun and really enjoy myself with them we rarely meet so it was worth it.

I'm missing something or someone like really. Everybody wants to be different no one wants to be the same. Like duh. Different different different. I wanna be ME be different!

Wanna say HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my Tuan puteri Norhaini! and Best supervisor ever had Malathi! Happy happy returns of the day and best wishes. Age is just numbers like really!

Wanna say I LOVE YOU! to you know who you are, if you dont know then close your eyes and feel in your heart and listen closely to what i'm whispering ILOVEYOU baby! woohoo

I'm still waiting. Please update me soon. Alright till then have nothing else to say.

I'll see you when i see you!

XOXO

Randomness plus hatred!

2010-01-06T08:18:00.004+08:00

Been wanting to blog but had no time to spare. Today promise myself to atleast update. Had lots of random stuff happened. Schools started! So happy! But sadly its the last month we will see each other energetic faces. Am sad :( But will definitely meet the bebehs once in awhile.

For the first time our trainer is a Malay Lady but not a typical makcik la. She's taking our class for the last 2 modules therefore she got to be awesome no matter what. Haha.

Work has been tough real tough schools started everyone forget their passwords! Typical users.

Motivate very much to follow and keeping to my new years resolution. Been doing what i'm suppose to do a very long time ago. Hopefully i will continue. Pray hard!

Missing my Ms P&C like really alot! She's the best!

I'm very much upset at work, upset with ome people that always come late for work. What happen to the punctual people. They are very irresponsible. I'm tired doing most of the things alone. What happen if 1 day i'm sick in the morning i bet things will just cock up. I really cant wait for april and be over with these nonsense attitude people. Not all are like that but still i'm tired seriously.

I hate this guy even though we might look close in the picture but i hate him!!! Like really so defensive always wants to be right, take things so seriously always. I just hate that bloody attitude. So what if you're heartbroken do you think i care????!!! GTH!

Anyway looking forward for weekends definitely. Have a GOOD day all! Positive positive :)

2009 =P

2009-12-31T20:16:00.005+08:00

I've not been updating due to work. It has been the most craziest week so far. With the lack of manpower due to some people MIA?!!! I've been attending to lots of calls alone in the morning. Though this week there's no class on Wednesday but i think it has NO different as i came back home late just to SACRIFICE my own time to help the users by finish up my work. Its so exhausting and i just had to complain all this work that I've done i cant claim OT what more? Of cause i need to complain just to release my tension and stress. HAHA *self console* that its okay to complain sometimes.

Enough about all those work. Actually i HAVE lots to update like my Birthday celebration with the Bebehs. We ate @ Al Majlis! It was Fun but sadly 2 cant make it so there were 5 of us girlies. Its okay though it's still fun! Posted some pictures at Facebook and will here. Cause we all doll-up, dress-up and make-up for this!

Well now i want to start on my memories of 2009! Well 2009 is the year that i learn to be INDEPENDENT more responsible and lots of stuff. Its the year that i GROW UP earning MONEY on my OWN and paying alot too. Its the year of GIVING and sharing. Its also learning to SACRIFICE for strangers. Learning to be more PATIENCE and controlling the temper. Lot of other learning really.

Meeting new people, making friends and keeping in touch with the old ones. It has been a GREAT YEAR so far. Like really. If i continue it will not end. So i really thank god and very grateful with what he have gave me. We lose some but we gain more :)

Though it has been like a CRAZY roller coaster ride! But it was FUN, exciting, insane and whats not! It has been tough really tough. but "Whatever does not kill you really makes you stronger!".

The most important thing that I've learnt is I've learnt to bersyukur, to be thankful to God. Good things does not come by easily. Comparing to whatever shit I've been getting at work to others i think mine might still be wokay.

Anyway what's my New year Resolution well actually i have not think about it yet. Maybe leading a more Healthy Lifestyle and giving time to do what i suppose to do. Let that be a secret. To also GIVE more.

Tomorrow will be 2010 so Happy New year. Looking forward for it and praying that it will be a fulfilling year.

Am i not a good girl? I'm at home on New year eve while friends are out there partying.

Really cant wait for next week. "I'll see YOU when i see You!" I miss you too!

Tips and Tricks to Call Helpdesk!

2009-12-24T15:51:00.004+08:00

Here's the Tips and Tricks to call Helpdesk to make your call more efficient and "successful".

1. Before deciding to dial the Helpdesk number, first ask yourself "Can i find the answer to my question elsewhere?" If you're enquiring on certain things. If you are facing a problem ask this "Has anyone encounter the same problem as me? Don't call and say i cant access the Internet and when the helpdesk asked you "Sir/Mdm how about your colleagues are they facing the same problem? and you shouted to the whole room only to find out that you are the only 1 and put down the phone. Don't waste your time and don't waste the helpdesk time don't be selfish there are others with "real problems" calling in also.

2.Gather all the information you think is necessary, don't waste time later to ask the helpdesk to hold on the line for you and take your own sweet time finding the information needed. Think again if you have to wait for half an hour holding on before the line got through, there are others doing the same thing while you are on the line with the helpdesk. Then later complain that "Your line ah is sooooo HOT ah..." Thank GOD when you hear a voice greeting you after waiting for more than half an hour. Don't scold them its not their fault. Think and use your brains. You have study till you graduated from the most prestige University NIE. Don't made a fool of yourself by asking "What am i suppose to fill up under Personal Particulars?" You have just asked the most dumbest question ever!

3. When calling Helpdesk it would be much appreciated if you can start by saying your name and where you are calling from (name of the school). Don't just give your NRIC when you are not asked. NRIC not necessary especially when you say "I have problems while installing this software and here is my NRIC." What do you think the helpdesk can do when you gave them your NRIC. They will be like "WTH?" "What does NRIC got to do with the errors you have while installing the software?" Really people it made no sense. We catch NO BALL.

4. Don't assume things. Because as you know what sector you are in its much more strict than the other organisations. They have so many policies and procedures and apparently as you know you are calling the first level helpdesk who CANT DO anything on the password reset. Don't put them in a spot by saying that they are not helping. Do you know that they actually wish that they can give it to you after hearing you cry, shout and scream and understanding that you are so frustrated about not been able to login. Though sometimes it's YOUR FAULT.

5. Please bear in mind that you are calling Helpdesk not a police or private investigator or anything else but just HELPDESK. How do you define Helpdesk? Because we certainly don't have the answer on why there is no Public holiday in lieu for Deepavali or any other holidays. Don't scold the helpdesk that they are "Naive, Childish, immature." When you are asking her to investigate when you suspect that your Administrator in school are abusing their rights. Use your brains this is school internal matters seek you boss for help. Why get the external party to thing wrongly of you?

6. When you knew that the problem you have are created by you and you knew that its your stupid mistake please be considerate and thankful that the helpdesk are trying very best to help you instead of shouting here and there to get things done very fast. Think again human being control the system not the system control human being. So no matter what they are still humans.

7. The helpdesk are aware that you are very smart and being teachers you should know that when you asked your students to read the books you should also do that. Read first if you can find the answer right infront of you. Why call? Isn't it waste of your time? Don't asked "What is the fax number?" When actually you can find the answer there then you yourself say "ooo yeah its here in the form..."

8. When the helpdesk say hold on while they do the check don't gossip about them because they only mute their mic but actually they are there hearing you spouting nonsense. Don't sing also even though your voice is nice but you are just disturbing the concentration of the helpdesk.

9. Please don't cry while explaining your problem and making the helpdesk feel so guilty that they actually cant really help on that not that they don't want to they are just not given any authorised to do that. So please don't cry.

10. Lastly think before you say, treat everyone the same as the helpdesk are also humans and have feelings if you tell your problem nicely am sure that the helpdesk will help you sincerely. Remember there's always karma! What goes around comes around.

Merry Christmas! Go and have a nice holiday. Don't call helpdesk!

Take care! XOXO

"I'll see you when i see YOU!"

Realisation.Devotion and whats not.

2009-12-19T20:20:00.002+08:00

What should i do next to keep myself busy? I guess and realised that after months of being busy i'm getting used to it and during my leave days when i have to stay at home i cant really do that anymore. So i have to start planning on what should i devote myself into? Devotedly in love? Oh NO!

I want to get my car license first! Like finally. This time i want to do it alone! I want to take my BTT and FTT alone and everything alone! HAHA. And i want to finish it fast. Maybe after that i want to take my degree. Still thinking on which degree i should take. All of this are just some plans i have in mind. So God willing yeah.

Plans for next week, Birthday celebration with TMIS Bebehs, Christmas with my Philipines Sisters and I miss them so much and TMIS Classmates Get together. Woohoo So Sexcited.

New year resolutions coming soon. 2009 is yet another memorable year for everyone i suppose. Really am so grateful to God. Shall elaborate this when the time comes i guess. Cant wait for next year? Looking forward for 2010 another good and memorable year.

Actually was supposed to start on my LGA2 but went sidetrack for awhile. I will really miss doing all this LGAs. Though now i feel like CRAP. haha.

God is fair right? ;p

Okay i should start doing my LGA now. I love you people!

When you least expect it.... LOVE HAPPENS!

"I'll see YOU when i see you!" Yeay!

Random :)

2009-12-17T20:45:00.005+08:00

I seriously do not know why but i find that my colleagues are all random and all so weird :P I'm weird too! Haha.

I have a smelly, weird colleague who is i think in his own world and sometimes i do pity him. I'm a bad girl la really. I like to disturb people and i believe in karma too :P

Another one is a very weird one he can sometimes pretend that he is online with users and actually talking to himself. He is sometime okay and can help out and when his mood swings come he can pretend that he doesn't even know you!

My CUTE team leader haha! He is very big as in tall and we call him GIANT! Don't disturb him when his hungry! haha. But when his talking to his GF you'll see the softer side of him. Which i find very funny and cute. He even made 'Paper Balls' to throw at me when i starts singing or crapping due to certain level of STRESS. You cant blame me right? *winks*

I have a very different supervisor and assistant supervisor. They are just different and i have no comments.

Let me tell you about my another team leader, who always come late and the best part he is the TEAM LEADER. WTF i know. Whatever la.

There's this new guy, he is good looking and single. He just recover from a heartbroken. He is a nice guy la and i'm sad to hear his story though he never tell the whole story.

Another female colleague of mind who is very pretty but she's so naive and blur haha but she is nice person la. She really made me understand one thing, that god is very fair. I don't want to explain on that statement.

Overall am i happy there? People there is fun we joke we laugh we crap alot but work wise is i think really i just learn a new word when i work there which is "STRESS" haha. It use to be not in my dictionary.

Sometimes i just wish that i have someone to talk to that can understand all this that i'm really tired. Not that i don't haha. I think i have share with some close people, my friends, my mum, my ms p&c and lots of people haha. So ignore my first sentence. Just want to made all of this sounds pitiful.

Wait! I should not have complain. Whatever will be, will be. Please i really need to learn how to do this... Okay people i'm not complaining haha

Okay i shall end here cant wait for lots of happening and fun time with Classmates, going class is so much fun except that OPTIMISE SALES is CRAP! I think someone is in LOVE with Andrew Chan! Really OMG this classmates of mine is getting the nerve of some of the rest of them. But overall no matter how irritating we can be i really love class. I cant imagine how I'm going to survive to work when class is over. What am is suppose to look forward to when i wake up every morning? What am i suppose to thing first thing i wake up every morning? Haiz i really love going class despite the tiredness like really i love my classmates can?

Shall end my ranting right now!

"I'll see YOU when i see you!" Shall wait for that :P

PS the pics above are with my Philippines sisters! Cant wait for christmas with them!

Officially sad :(

2009-12-15T07:38:00.002+08:00

I'm officially sad :( and am sad. Trying to comfort myself. :) But i's okay i have to get used to this.

I'm excited for my date with the gang! Yeh Celebrating our beloved Siti and Haz Birthdays! Can't wait really.

Actually i have nothing to blog except that i'm just sad. I still have to finish this LGA1. Time flies so super duper fast. Just 1 more month i have mix feeling for that.

"I'll see YOU, when i see you!" That mades me special and its only for me! Yeh 2 weeks is gonna be very fast. Don't worry!

Weekend.Lazy.Tired

2009-12-14T07:56:00.003+08:00

Was feeling so so lazy during weekends especially Sunday and have not done my LGA1. HAHA. I must admit that i'm feeling super duper lazy to finish up my LGA1.

Cleared my Conduct Situational Analysis on Saturday! Yeh! HAHA. Went out with Neville and Evan for late lunch and early dinner at Seoul Garden. Initially we did not know where to go but we settled down at Seoul Garden. Did some bonding and gossiping session with the 2 cute men. HAHA. You should see Evan's face when Neville is crapping himself. HAHA the both of them are so damn funny. Well i can click well with them i think and we will still go out again and next where? Spoon soup? Evan was saying we should go out every once a month. HAHA. I had fun with them.

Anyway on Friday before class get to spend some time with Ms P&C. Wooohooo some quality time spend with her before she actually disappear to meet her prince. HAHA. Lucky on that very day there is no plans from the gang if not had to give some excuses. Today will be the last day i see her then she will disappear for 2 to 3 weeks and I'm so sad. But nvm its okay she'll be back soon and i pity her she is so exhausted with the tight schedule.

Hopefully this week will be a good week. Take care all!

Bangkok Pattaya Love

2009-12-10T07:31:00.004+08:00

Back from Bangkok Pattaya on Monday, had lots of rest and study on monday itself and tuesday.

Bangkok Pattaya was hell of fun! We laugh, we shop and we shop again haha! We went for massage kesian orang yg massage kan aku tuh. :P But i love Bangkok :) Wanna go again and again! Shopping gila nak mampos punye :) Coral island was nice except that there is too many Indians from India and i feel that i went to Mumbai :p And ouh yeah you can count how many ang mohs there cause there are more Indians... Haiz haha. But lucky Bangkok there is Lots of Mat salleh yang Gorgeous and Handsome2 woohooo... Went to Bangkok with Afni and Haz was great except that they alwasy bully me :( Haha They love to bully me and according to them they love to see my face and reactions when they bully me ah yerla tuh.

Next trip where? I want to go Hongkong, Korea and Bangkok again and again! Ouh yeah and maybe Batam with some of the classmates maybe this time Nurul, Aidah, Siti and Lisa will be there. The more the merrier!

Lucky we know this restaurant that is near to our hotel that sells halal food and they are nice and friendly people :) We made friends with the Thai guy and the owner also they are all so funny and cute.

I miss Bangkok :( and I'm lazy to work after Holiday and I'm still in Holiday Mood :P

My course is ending soon and i cant believe that its so soon. The good part is that i don't have to do anymore LGA no more going back late because of school and can meet Ms P&C freely i don't know but i just feel that she is doing the countdown for me cause every time we meet she will ask how many more modules, how many more lesson with the current on going module and when is your course ending? Haha But the sad part is that i cant meet classmates as often and yeah they are all so fun especially my usual cliques the usual gang. I will definitely miss our Meet ups before class and planing to go here and there. Really :( But life's like that. Another year of meeting and making friends with nice people, another year of learning new things and another year older haha.

I have to start finding new job already :) Cant wait for april really :P Wooohooo Wokay! I LOVE YOU TOO! Saying it is so easy right? I love you la :p

cook COOK masak MASAK

2009-12-01T07:43:00.004+08:00

The tittle says it all. I can't cook, saya tak pandai masak. ARGHHHH Is that suppose to be normal? or BAD? Let me list down what i can o in the kitchen, BOIL water? is that consider cook? Ok la i can cook maggie HAHA and fry egg? Maybe frying is okay la but Cooking main dishes OMG?

Okay i got cooking challenge! Haha! We are depending on each other. Ok i'm up for the cooking challenge, tell me the date and we will cook together! HAHA. The dish to cook is definitely not easy la. Okay people saiyidah is learning how to cook. If forest-qin read this she will SCREAMMMM haha.

Motivate me okay? Cooking is not easy and definitely not my thing but no harm trying right? One fine day i will still have to cook, so yeah i'm learning. Haha.

I will start learning after Bangkok! woohoooo

Don't worry once i MASTER the ART of COOKing i will let you all try okay? Once i find that the food is edible haha.

Wait for that day!

Bye People! Pray for my safe journey! I'll be back before you knew it! and i will miss everyone!

Pengorbanan :)

2009-11-28T21:03:00.004+08:00

Apakah pergobanan yang anda pernah lakukan? Layakkah ia dipanggil pengorbanan? Pengorbanan untuk diri sendiri? Untuk orang lain? Pengorbanan? Apakah itu pengorbanan?

Pengorbanan seorang emak untuk anaknya?

Pengorbanan seorang ayah untuk ibu/bapanya?

Pengorbanan seorang kakak/abang untuk adiknya?

Pengornanan yang dilakukan untuk diri sendiri?

Pengorbanan masa, duit?

Pengorbanan = Sacrifice

Why do we celebrate Hari Raya Aidiladha? Hari pengorbanan? Pengorbanan Nabi Ibrahim.

Saya tertanya-tanya apakah pergorbanan yang saya sudah lakukan? Adakah pergorbanan yang saya sudah lakukan? Layak kah ia dipanggil pergorbanan?

I know it's a little bit too late but Selamat Hari Raya Aidiadha kepada semua muslimin dan muslimat! Semoga hari raya aidiladha kali ini telah memberi kesedaran kepada kite semua dan semoga kite diberkati allah.

May God's peace and blessings be upon us all! InsyaAllah.

Been busy lately with work clearing all my pending cases and been working real hard with this LGA 3. Hopefully finishing soon :) and hopefully i dont have to redo this.

Counting down just a few more days. Cant believe finally. Hopefully our Holiday will be a good and safe one!

Take care all! See you soon and now i'm having cough again :(

Old folks home or Orphanage...

2009-11-24T08:19:00.006+08:00

Why suddenly this topic? Because as i grew older and did some soul searching and stuff i just find that i prefer to do volunteering work at Old Folks Home. I feel that its more challenging to take care of an elderly rather than a child. Like now many are not taking good care of their parents, to be fair they said they have to take turns on who is taking care of the parents. Some can even call the ambulance just to shift their sick parents from 1 house to another. Heartless? Troublesome? IDK

I just feel that i can click well with my grandmother, aunts, uncles? idk, grandfather if they are still around am sure i can click with them and my parents of cause. Maybe i should do some volunteering work at some old folks home. It should be fun right? Anyway we should really appreciate them while they are still around. If a mum can change a diaper for their kids, can the kids change the diaper for their mum when she's already sick and can't take care of herself anymore? Can they sacrifice time for their old, sick parents? Can i? Can you? Who are we without them.

If they can take care of their parents, uncles, aunties, grandparents, i don't think there is a need to have old folks home even. Everyone can do their part to made this world to be a better meaningful place to live in.

So love them, cherish them take good care of them because without them we are nothing! I think this should be one of my new year resolution. Azam baru! And ouh yeah i should LOVE my job its also helping people. Anyway i do enjoy talking and helping to the users that are already "old" and a bit blur to the IT stuff. They are really cute like one of my users can even sing for me, how can i not love my job? If only she call me everyday i wouldn't mine talking to her for hours! Really? I really love and appreciates all the Senior Citizens out there! haha ohsorandom.

I shall end here I'm feeling a bit sad depressed and down. So many things need to do and had happened. Haiz:(

Getting tougher? Sedia kan payung sebelum hujan!

2009-11-19T20:08:00.005+08:00

Simply lost for words. I cant update here as often as i do due to work simply no time to multi task and enjoy my calls like i use to do. Now no more enjoying all the calls are giving me a big headache. Sometime when you do something wrong please don't blame the system. I HATE IT. Stupid stupid mistake they made and simply wants it to be solve like just in a blink of eye? This users are TOOOOOO demanding. Aiyoh speechless.

Class has been alright. I'm loving mon,wed and fri not just wed anymore but no matter we still have to keep a distance and maintain professional relationship. Orang da start cakap pun. No comments really pfft.

Tired this week as been working real hard on this LGA1 and staying back to do work on tues and thurs. Just to finish the shits that were given. I dont want to complain but no matter what I'm simply just a normal human being you see?

I'm in love with Q7 woohoooo really the price also OMG! I will marry anyone who can buy me Q7 and sponsor my driving license. Maybe better still a chauffeur? haha

I'm starting to do something that i have not been doing even though i was suppose to do it. When? I need the strength and God's blessing. InsyaAllah amin.

Still standing strong! XOXO

Birthday Celebrations + Updates

2009-11-11T12:41:00.012+08:00

I miss blogging and i miss it so much! Well work have been crazy really crazy that i fall sick. But i don't blame work though. SA2 and End of year process has been tough for me so far. I'm really trying my very best to endure with it right now. And as for school I'm up for the challenge of this LGAs that they say is quite tough.

Birthday Celebration has been going on and on even though birthday was over! Haha! Ok lets blog about the Birthday Celebrations.

21st October

First was with Ms P&C @ Swensens and Birthday present for me! She is super duper sweet and ouh yeah the muffin as OUR birthday cake! Happy Birthday to u toooo! It was fun and meaningful. "What is age? Its just numbers right?" HAHA.

24th and 25th October

Second was with the Colleagues Mals, Jerry, his wife and Sumathi. JB Trip was fun had lots of fun and exciting journey finding the Seafood Restaurant. The 2 Red light story and we lost our way! Haha and the driver Sumathi reading all the signboard she saw haha. And end up we found the place but but but it was close! WTH WTF we ended up going back to SG eating @ Swensens again for me by then it has past Midnight and its My Birthday! Anyway thanks for the wish and thanks Jerry for the Treat! So we ended up going again to the Seafood Restaurants on the 7th Nov! The food was supperbbb but this time round was with Ummi as our Driver!

30th October

Third was a treat from Mr Hot and Sexaay Collin @ Fish and Co together with Jason. Initial plan was with Afni but due to some reasons she did not attend class. So yeah we had our late dinner and then Collin send us back home. Thanks for the treat and also sending us back home.

31st October

Fourth was with Bestie Firah and Liza we had dinner at Food Culture it has been sometime since i ate there. Then we went to Kak Noor House to Visit the Newborn Baby Boy Mirza Hidayat super duper cute and has Abg Mohd Face! Thanks Bestie Firah for the Special and memorable Birthday Card and Birthday Presents and you are also one of the precious friends that i have! I'm blessed and grateful to have you as my Bestie! and not forgetting Liza also. Thank you girls!

3rd November

Fifth was with My lovely Foresties! Forest Friends are so loved :)

We had our dinner @ Al-Majlis. The food was nice and ouh yeah we also had sheesha strawberry was the pick. It was my first time and maybe last? The feeling i had when i sheesha was wrong haha like sinful like that. Anyway Sheesha is also not good for health but i try to made myself feel better by saying its different from smoking and its certainly different from smoking. To go again and sheesha ermmm i don't know. But really we had lots of fun and it was very fruitful for us as we really RARELY meet due to our clash schedules. Ouh yeah the MAJOR thing that happen was the surprise Forest Zeyma had plan for us.

The Birthday Cuppy Cakes was very nice and super duper sweet! She plan a very sweet surprise for us and her excuse was ermm i need to go toilet and then she's back with the Cup cakes and the whole room sang for us Birthday Song. It was quite embarrassing and we felt popular for awhile haha! So if our next meet up will be on Feb then it will be a MAJOR Event for us to plan for Forest Zey's 22nd Birthday! So Forest Qin do you remember the date? HAHA! It was preetttyyyy happening that day! I love you FORESTIES la! Thanks BABI HUTAN! HAHA!

8th November

Sixth and final maybe? Haha i supposed so la. Its with Lou and Masita! We met for dinner as it has been quite sometime since i met them and we really had a good chat, talk, gossips,discuss? Lou gave me present! Thanks sis i love you so much! Thanks also for the treat. Ok we shall meet again soon when everyone is free.

9th November

A super duper late Birthday Surprise plan for us by the SO SWEET classmates! Thanks Aidah, Haz, Nurul and whoever was singing along the Birthday Song @ Student Lounge. Better late then never very sweet la korang! I love u all so much!

I fell sick on Monday and it got worst on Tuesday the Doc said i need lots of rest so he gave me 2 Days MC! OUH ILOVEHIM! haha and my doctor is very Charming you know. So had a good rest yesterday and today feeling better but the throat still sore. Had a good time just now breakfast with Mum and her friends.

I cant wait for next week cant wait to meet with Ms P&C and we have lots of catching up to do. Cant wait for Bangkok and Pattaya Trip! Just cant wait for the SA2 and EOY to be over!

Alright that's all i think. "I'll see you when i see you!"

Updates

2009-11-05T09:08:00.004+08:00

I have loads to update loads to blog about loads of pictures to upload. Friends please wait thank you very nice. I will blog soon after i finish all the shits. Chey.

Okay sooooonnnnn :D

Friends?

2009-10-30T07:15:00.003+08:00

"As you grow older you have lesser friends and by then you can count how many friends you have. The friends that stays with you are your true friends given by God. " I agree 100%!

Because some definitely come and go, some can "kill" you some cant be trusted and sometimes friends can turn to be the enemy. No one wants to have enemy. Biar la kite cari kawan jangan la cari musuh atau lawan.

Yeah TGIF bebeh! *I gotta feeling that tonight gonna be a good night cause tonight gonna be a good night and tonight gonna be a good good night!*

LGA5 Done! Woohooo Yesterday got enough sleep enough rest! Happy Banget sih! Looking forward to study smart and hard today :) Wont want to dissapoint someone. If not she is so gonna kill me! 2 more LGAs and then its over :) Fuh. Everybody we love LGAs dont we? The next module is going to be a tough one also. aiyoh.

Take care friends!

"I'll see you when i see you!" sms, call me soon!

love.blessed.thankful.peace.

2009-10-29T15:09:00.002+08:00

I dont know how long more i can survive but i will try my very best to!

Its getting bored i'm getting bored woohooo.

I have no good things in mind everything that i feel that i think right now is all negative i have no absolute positive things to blog except for being excited with the line up.

Tommorow lunch date, dinner date basically dating day. Lunch date with Tuan puteri yang cantik manis. Dinner date with the classmates apparently Mr Hot and sexy is treating birthday girls dinner. Saturday Halloween with Nurul, afni and friends at Sentosa visiting our Favourite GHOST HAZ! Supporting her! Will vote for you dont worry! Sunday meeting Besties Firah and liza to visit our dear Kak Noor and my so gonna be Favourite BABY BOY Mirza Hidayat love!

When i say i have boyfriend no one believes me! Mirza Hidayat is too young haha and i know forever, friends will not believe me cause apparently they say i like to joke about it. I think if i give my wedding card suddenly they'll be shocked! Why not ah? Like surprise surprise *I'm Getting Married!* Confirm everyone shock giler.

Bonding with Ms P&C has been great so far. More meetups more dates hopefully. God Willing. She has been so genuine and so sincere ever and i love her for that!

Today will be working late again. and LGA5 also need to finish up. Fuh!

Have a great day ahead all!

Sayang all!

bleah

2009-10-28T07:30:00.003+08:00

And today is Wednesday cause today is Wednesday and am very and always looking forward for Wednesday. HAHA. and after Wednesday it will be like very super duper fast that its gonna be WEEKENDS! This week quite pack cause am very busy on both Saturday and Sunday. CHEY. Like real but its for real. Can't wait for Halloween on Saturday! Sunday i want to see BABY BOY MIRZA HIDAYAT my new BOYFRIEND woohooo! Cant wait SEXCITED!

MIRZA HIDAYAT! My new love sexy addiction *drools* Dont be jealous okay! HAHA.

This few days had nothing to blog about. I'm feeling so bleah at work. Hoping that this End of year and SA2 thingy will soon be over. At work is getting worst my important peoples are leaving! Important in a sense that we work together and picking up apps calls and soon I'll be alone and left with some new ones. I don't know how the situation gonna be like later.

I'm loving Marketing Strategy! I'm loving class! I'm loving Wednesday currently but not sure after this Wednesday I'm gonna still love Wednesday that depends. I'm not loving something that is too sensitive to mention here. Getting irritated and annoyed with some people. But I'm such a darling and loving girl! haha. No matter what i will just smile! Chey MACAM PAHAM!

Alritey "I'll see you when i see you!" macam paham

Birth-Day.Bird-Day.Burst-Day.Boobs-Day.

2009-10-26T12:53:00.004+08:00

Thank you to family, friends and FANS for wishing me! Its greatly appreciated :) Yesterday birthday was stay at home day. I was sick and body ache and very very tired due to the JB trip that ends at Changi Airport and reach home 2plus in the morning. Almost out of the house 24hrs. Damn shagged that today i took urgent leave due to some problems that needs to settle.

Birthday yesterday was quite boring nothing happening happen unlike last year. But its all fine its still fun.

Thank you to those who sms, call, FB and tagged me to wish. Thank you very much its greatly appreciated.

Have yet to blog about the JB trip that end at Changi Airport Terminal 2 Swensen. That was very memorable, cute, funny and interesting. Well its also quite dramatic. I dont really know what i wear but it seems to attract some people's attention.HAHA.

Not feeling very well to blog. I have class to attend even though i did not come to work. Thats all will blog again.

"I'll see you when i see you!"

Reflections :)

2009-10-24T07:58:00.002+08:00

Since i have time now and will not have tomorrow i shall do my reflections today. What had happen when i was 19 going 20.

I started my working life start to be independent. What an achievement no more money coming from parents. Learn to be more responsible and learn to juggle with work and study. My 19 going 20 year was not bad at all. Met new colleague, new classmates and made friends from there. Met an angel send by god someone that i look up to. Of cause there is up and downs but most importantly its very memorable.

I got lots of shooting by the teachers by the admin managers by the HODs and basically all MOE staffs but all of that is making me a better person. Not all shootings some are compliments and all appreciates the help even though some never really shows but i had fun listening to their complaints listening to their difficulties with the system and try my very best to help them so i know no matter how the conversations got tense in the end deep down they appreciates the help. This job is definitely a challenging one and really taught me a lot no matter how crazy the number of calls per day i still know at the end of it i learn something. :)

In school was also very fun i prefer school like duh. Class was so much better even though its very tiring. Meeting and getting new trainer each module is FUN even though some really suck and bring down the tittle of a TRAINER/TEACHER. Learn not only about Tourism but a lot more stuff that i don't know or not aware of. Having to mingle and getting to know classmates from different race and ages are also interesting. Learn a lot from the "Old timers" in class and broaden the networking of making friends. I'm proud to have classmates/friends that are off 30 to 40 over and getting to know their perceptions. Is good to mingle you know. HAHA.

Old friends are of cause being MISS like a lot. We might not meet all the time but you guys are close in my heart.

For my 20th Birthday i wish that everyone wishes and dreams will come true. How's that? Hopefully another year of a fresh knowledge and great and memorable experience. Uphold my Principe's and be more strong to face the shit outside. Be more understanding and more more patience.

Saiyidah is so bersyukur with everything that God have given her. Bersyukur sangat-sangat sebab apa pun yang terjadi di luar sana ade lagi orang yang lebih merana lebih menderita lebih susah dari kita. Must always remember that alright. Jangan menyerah okay?

Let see how it goes. Have a great weekends all and take care.

"I'll see you when i see you!!" xoxo

My cup of tea/coffee!

2009-10-23T08:03:00.004+08:00

First of all lets wish Afni Gorgeous a very BIG HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Happy happy Birthday to u Afni Gorgeous! May all the wishes and dreams come true! May God's peace and blessings be upon you. May the friendship last. God Willing.

Yeah *Lets sing and dance* Cause today is TGIF! Tomorrow is Saturday and excited for the short trip to JB with the colleagues! Time flies very fast that soon its gonna be an end to October. WOW cant wait for the SA2 to be over!

Another year has past and i met another wonderful bunch of people with a great experience. I love meeting new people and understanding weird people might not be easy but its still a nice thing to do.

I want to share what is my "Ciri-ciri lelaki idaman saya". The type of man i wish to have God willing. Okay first of all i will not lie looks is not important but atleast that guy must be clean, smart and when i look it will be something like "Sedap mata memandang." HAHA.

I don't like guys that have Long hair and i don't know why girls like "bad boys" type like the more violent they are the more the girls will like. I don't know for me i don't like "bad boys" image i don't find them sexy at all and i also don't like nerd guys ah please don't assume that.

Am not choosy about the hair style any hair style will do, No hair also does not matter so long if he is not wearing wig or long hair. HAHA. Please la don't wear wig Bald is sexier okay! Facial hair, moustache or beard or goatee does not really matters. But goatee cute la. Chest hair is sexy wooohooo. HAHA. That's all about the hair stuff.

Physically ermm i would prefer guys that are taller even if its just a cm taller. No need for a muscular body but not thin or "buncit" can? haha Body, hand must at least be sexy la. Physically tak cerewet sangat la.

Character wise ermm he must have good heart, must be very very very understanding. Because we are 2 different human being and with different point of views and thinking's. It will be very good that he can understand me. Because I'm a different and a crazy girl. Lazy to elaborate on the different. If you know me then you know me haha. Ape ckp eh? He must also be a responsible guy. Who does not want a responsible guy? Tell me about it. Ouh yeah ugama wise at least can membimbing la no need to be an ustaz or what la.

He also must have a good income chey. High Maintenance susah la! I also don't mind any race as long as he is willing to convert to Islam and be a muslim, i'm fine. Kalau dapat negro pun negro la. haha.

All of this is just a list of an ideal guy but whoever that god has send me and da tertulis jodohnye i will just accept it. Jodoh pertemuan kan semua tangan tuhan. This list is kalau boleh la. I believe that god is giving me someone good to take care of me, guide me, love me, understand me and the time will surely come.

Thinking what should i do after my Diploma... Degree? Yeah maybe i should before i lost the interest. Degree. God Willing.

"You are cuter!"

My Sincere Thank you!

2009-10-21T22:37:00.004+08:00

I know that you wont be reading this but i think i just want to express my thoughts and feelings.

To my dearest ABB,

I really appreciate our second date and really felt an honour and also special to have you so called celebrating my birthday corrections OUR birthdays. I'm very lucky and thank god for sending me "YOU" to be here and advised me on things. Really a sincere and from the bottom deep deep down my heart Thank you very very much for the gift, the time, the treat and the advise that you gave. For this i think I'm such a lucky lucky girl.

Its very nice to date you after what like almost 3 months from our last date. Only god knows how much i appreciated the time we spend even though its a limited 2 hours spend and i hope god willing we will meet up often so that i could learn more from you. Like i said if you think I'm cute you are wrong cause you are cuter.

Happy birthday to us and may god's peace and blessings be upon us. What is age? Its just numbers right?

One thing you must know you've made a great impact in my life and you'll always be remembered. I'M STILL TOUCHED YOU KNOW!

From Yours truly~~~ Best Wishes!

I will always remember 21st Oct 2009 and all the advises you gave. Appreciate much.

Thank you finally you tell me! Finally fuh!

I want to get to know you!

2009-10-20T07:16:00.002+08:00

I cant sleep yesterday night. I'm feeling some really very strange things and its not about ghost or nightmares. The feeling is indescribable but somehow i like this feeling.

Lets Move on to the topic for today. It has been quite sometime since i get this kind of messages in the inbox at Facebook/Tagged and the message goes like this "Hi there can i get to know you blah blah and here is my number." The last time i had this kind of message was when i'm in sec sch days and that incident really thought me alot. Learnt my lesson and i think that is the only stupid thing that i ever do during my sec schl days. Because i'm really a true blue "Kental" girl and i cant lie to my mum who is worst than a "POLICE INSPECTOR".

Think that now i'm much more mature and can take good care of myself this kind of messages would not really bothers me but seriously giving my number would be a "NO NO" thing to do. I'm open in making new friends but i just dont like how this men can give such an old school lines to get to know you. That line is so yesterday chey.

Yesterday was great at office as there is few calls and the office feels like Saturday because all the others are still having their public holiday and only helpdesk continue to work. Had fun meeting the Bebehs early and have our dinner together before class. Fun in class too with that Virginia Wu.

Cant wait for Wednesday date with Ms P&C! Hopefully nothing goes wrong. God Willing! Extremely excitedness for Saturday JB trip with Jerry, ummi and Mals! Cant wait to meet Lou also. Basically i'm just looking forward for a good week. God Willing!

But i'm still sad that my wish for this year to have a HOT DATE on My Birthday itself is not going to happen. Dream Harder Saiyidah!

Till den. To you know who you are "I want to get to know you deeper can?" deep indeed!

"I'll tell you when i tell you."Soon finally.

Happy Happy Bird-Day!

2009-10-17T18:06:00.004+08:00

So today is Deepavali, So Happy Diwali All!

I know i had already wishes Alisa Baby yesterday, then wish again at Facebook and now here a post specially for Alisa Baby! Happy Bird-day to you, Selamat Hari Jadi, Selamat Ulang-Tahun! We're just 20 and still very young kan? We grew old every year but always young at heart woohooo. So semoga kau akan jadi anak yang solehah chey. All your wishes will come true, may god's peace and blessings be upon you! Semoga our friendship will last till kita jadi nenek2 kays. HAHA.

Ouh my birthday is next week! Not very SEXCITED though! What should i get myself this year? I have already got myself a ticket to BANGKOK! woohooo Cant believe i'm gonna be 20 next week. No more TEENS behind i always felt that i'm SIX-TEEN.HAHA.

I hate to move house! So many things to be done, besides i dont really want to move. Not excited at ALL! But WTH. I have NO SAY!

Havent start on my LGA2 yet. Lazy to start. Have cleared my Handle termination, dismissal and resignation! Fuh. All the best to the rest! Still having lots of fun at class with Ms virginia Wu!

Have great weekend all!

My Schedule

2009-10-16T08:46:00.005+08:00

Today is going to be a wonderful day.God willing.

So much so of this year birthday is nothing but just a birth-day. This year i dont have any birthday wish list like i used to have. I just want everyone to be happy no matter what might comes. Family and friends birthday wish will be appreciated much. Thank you very nice!

Here is my Birthday Dates list:

21 Oct- Date with MS P&C

24 Oct- Afternoon with Sister Lou

24 Oct- Evening till late with Jerry,ummi,mals

25 Oct- No date yet :(

26 Oct- Date with the Family

27 Oct- Pending Date with TMIS Bebehs!

29 Oct- Pending Date with Bestie Firah and Liza

Who else wants to date me? Please call/sms/PM me. Thank You. Waiting for Foresties to plan the outing! Bila? Woohooo

Lisa Baby stay strong aites. You always have us, friends around you if you need help. Its not easy i know but god willing everything will be fine.

*I got a feeling that tonight gonna be a good night cause tonight gonna be a good night cause tonight gonna be a good good night*

"I'll tell you when i tell you!" Soon!

Blessed :)

2009-10-15T07:52:00.003+08:00

I think i had gotten back my Motivation. Come to think again I'm actually blessed with good souls around me. Never mind to whatever happen don't leave this place until you've got a better one. I believe that this is just part of life, am still very young and this is my learning point i have to swallow all this shit and learn from below. This is just a test for me to learn to be more patience. I will do my very best to be patience, stay strong and stay as cute as ever and as bubbly as ever and smile to whatever that might comes.

"Syukuri apa yang ada, Hidup adalah anugerah."

Yesterday i went on leave just on leave for a day and not leaving the job. HAHA. Took my best opportunity to date my mum and sister coincidentally she's at home. Even though its just for lunch and for a short while i still had fun. ILOVEMYFAMILY very much though i rarely blog about them. Had a good quality time spend with them.

Then off to meet Nurul and Lisa Babies. Had our nails done, touch up on the assignment though i still have not hand in yet still need to touch up more. Then accompany Lisa to have her late lunch kesian die. Then off to meet Ms P&C quality time spend with her and the date next week.*Prince Charming* ehem ehem. HAHA.

I am motivated. I am Blessed. I love GOD and i know he loves me too!

"I'll Tell you when i tell you." Don't escape from telling me!

HAPPY AND SEXICTED!

2009-10-13T14:14:00.004+08:00

One phone call can turn the angriness the madness into happiness! The power of my Ms P&C and i love her for that! Promise is a promise. Chey. Cant wait to meet her tomorrow even though tmr is just for awhile. and next week for our Date! haha You are very very very CUTE and ILOVEYOU woohoo! IMISSYOU very much also! Excitedness.

Saiyidah is HAPPY because tomorrow she is ON LEAVE!

"I'll tell you when i tell you!" and when is that? How can you said its over already and escape telling me hmph. Promise remember? hehe

PISSED

2009-10-13T08:31:00.001+08:00

I'm Angry! Saya Marah! I feel like killing SOME people! Really am very MAD!

DARAH

2009-10-11T16:41:00.003+08:00

Yesterday went to watch movie Darah with Afni. HAHA. The movie was ewww so Disgusting.

*Warning please do not eat mutton chop before watching this movie.*

After watching the both of us had no appetite to have our dinner immediately. HAHA. It is so damn gross. The movie was about people eating human meat to live longer and stay young and beautiful. OMG. Theres lots of blood too haha.

Today is a stay at home day. I was sooo tired and need the rest woooohooo. Chill at home is the best thing i need now.

Alright Have a great day ahead :D

"I'll tell you when i tell you." woooohoooo

"Life is like this Saiyidah you must always remember this."

2009-10-10T09:14:00.006+08:00

This week is the worst week so far for this month. Many things happened and most of the bad things is at work. Urgh how can i ever be happy at work? When I'm complaining so much about it, i feel that everything that i do here is fake. I pretend alot here. Pretend to be happy and positive here. Pretend that i can go on and stay strong. But i cant pretend anymore. I think everyone here wants to leave and we will leave one fine day but what we got to do is to stay strong. Strong? Can i stay strong? I just hate talking about this. And I'm at work now in office clearing my cases. Am supposed to leave like an hour ago. I cant wait for my leave seriously i need the break! I need it so much.

Why does the good always be question? Cause that is seriously life. Can i not care about others here? Why the hell should i? Did they care about me? I'm so having problem working with my 2 neighbours and i will go CRAZY soon! I tell you soon! I think I'm so so so fake when smiling or laughing with this 2 people. They came late and always escape doing the morning duties and i pity my other colleague and of cause i pity myself too. If i want to be selfish i can? But did i? They simply don't have the responsibility, team work spirit and only cares about their cases. Others to them don't matter. No one can handle them. Hopefully one day they will realise. I believe in Karma!

After this I'm going to watch movie with Afni bebeh and have dinner together. Release the stress. I cant wait to go Bangkok with Haz, Afni and Aidah! Hopefully everything goes well.

Praying hard that next week will be a better week at work, school and wherever la. Cant wait to meet My Ms P&C! woohoooo I miss her so much! Lets go out and have a drink together? haha *If I'm cute you are cuter la.*

Yesterday class was Fun the trainer is full of energy and very fun. I like the way she speaks wooo haha! and wait till you here how she pronounce my name and will never forget her because of that. Hopefully the trainer continues to be this fun and class will be interesting. Am glad that she is not someone like Maler, Eunice or L-bert hopefully she continue being her! If this continue then we will sail through Marketing strategy. God willing.

Finally!!! Maler let us sign for the AES. Finally am COMPETENT! fuuh my WA was alright i dont leave any blanks so she dont have any chance to scold or question me. =) haha "going through Menopause" hahahahahhaha *inside jokes* still cant believe you can say this hahahahahaha i think you are cuter la! Cant wait to meet you!!!

Alright all lets pray hard that everything is going to be okay and yours truly will stay strong.

I LOVE ALL!

"I'll tell you when i tell you!" waiting wooohooo

Headline NEWS

2009-10-08T07:52:00.004+08:00

When someone ask me are you in love? This is what i reply OUH YES I AM!

Of cause i'm in love, i love my family, love my friends, love GOD, love EVERYONE that ever came across in my life. Haha though i know she is referring to Loving a guy haha. Did i answer your question? Well i think i did!

Yesterday test was alright i think i did alright haha! So much of alright and alright.

I'm just very worried on who is teaching for the next module. Praying very very hard that the trainer is not going to be somone like Maler, Eunice or L-Bert. Its a BIG Module on a BUSY Month aiyo i'm so gonna be dead! God is fair and God is very fair.

I want to watch Movie! and i want to go for a SWIM... Anyone?

"I'll tell you when i tell you!" woohooboohooo

FOREST FREINDS LOVE!

2009-10-07T07:25:00.003+08:00

This post is specially for my FOREST FRIENDS! Thought that i would just blog on 11 instead but yeah am scared that i might forget due to work/school.

Anyway yeah true its like so fast time flies and that picture was like a year ago. Still remember the promise? Meet once a month at least but due to work/school own life now we don't usually do that nor does we always conference till late at night. Seriously i miss all that but what to do we have our own commitments.

Forest-Qin birthday just pass and zeyma what should we get her? haha I would love to go out with the 2 of u girls... Bile nk kluar nie? Jom Jom...

Anyway Happy Advance 14th Monthsary! May our Friendship last and May god give us blessing and peace! Lets be friends till we are "nenek2". InsyaAllah.

Can i sidetrack abit? Bangkok here i come.... woohoooo Flight has already been BOOKed! Yours truly is so SEXCITED!!! and this will be my motivation... After the work stress i'll be gone for 5 DAYS! Cant wait cant wait.

Ok girls lets plan an OUTING! Saturday or Sunday is preferable kay? Book this busy girl early kay! Haha! ILOVEYOUGIRLS VERY MUCH!

Forest-friends are LOVE!

"I'll tell you when i tell you." wooooo

Monday MADNESS and i HATE it!

2009-10-06T08:24:00.005+08:00

I HATE MONDAY! Yesterday was the worst monday i ever had like seriously! The calls was non-stop, cant breath, very thirsty, wasting the saliva explaining to an IRRITATING teacher who seems to not understand what i'm saying. Yesterday users really tested my patience. If i have the power i will definitely give them the password that they need. But I SERIOUSLY DONT! and yet some people just do not understand or do not want to understand.

I am so damn pissed and hair was very messy at work. I got so agitated when colleague next door keep on asking me question, here i am trying hard to understand the user calling and there beside she keep on asking me. What the hell for i give her the guides and all? Keep for Christmas isit? Supervisor understand me yesterday she knows that i was so worked up with all of this. Some people are too much la. Learn to be independant can? If you are trying try harder than.

But that was yesterday and today is a brand new day. Today early in the morning the phone line is not working! GOOD! I officially become the receptionist when the calls was diverted to my analog phone. Lucky it was just for an hour plus.

Hopefully everything is going to be alright. Going for Cockpit training later haiz damn boring. I WANT TO GO HOME! Sick and tired of this. Its just the beginning of October and i'm dragging my foot to office. I need all the patience, endurance and everything else. Most importantly i NEED back my MOTIVATION my POSITIVE attitude.

Cant wait for next week! Woohooo i'm waiting and still waiting.

I've decided that i want to celebrate my birthday with Lou on the 24th and go for the halloween at Sentosa :p

But 25th i'm still available nobody book me for a date yet. :( Sad.

Alrights Till den. Out for training

"I'll tell you when i tell you!"

Weekends Updates :)

2009-10-04T21:57:00.006+08:00

As planned i went out on both Saturday and Sundays! My weekend was a blast this time but very very tired.

Saturday was with TMIS Bebehs :p Start of at Siti's House and we're supposed to reach there at 1.30pm but Aidah reach nearly 4pm so we left her house a little bit late :D haha But its okay its alright :p It was fun fun fun and we getting to know each other deeper meeting the parents the family and all. We Bond, blend and clique very well. Most importantly we love each other very much :P Thanks to Siti for being our "Driver" and bring us around for the whole day :D

That Saturday also Aidah and Siti was competent for Appraise and evaluate. Waddehell ah this maler i think she really have attitude problem. I wonder when can i get to know if i'm competent?

Everyone can be a Trainer, any Tom,dick and harry also can be a Trainer. But the question is if you manage to made the student understand what you have thought? Not everyone can teach, Teaching is an honourable job its something that you do with love, with passion. Cause it comes from within, you don't become a Trainer because of the money or for the sake of passing your time.

Teaching is not as easy as you think it is. I definitely admit i cant be a Trainer/Teacher.

Sunday was Jalan Raya with the Office Mates and also went over for Illya E-DAY! It was also fun but really i was damn tired already. Thanks Ummi for bringing us around as also being the "Driver". Thank you very much.

Sleepy already, blog again tmr :P

"I'll tell you when i tell you!" Soon Hopefully :D

Bangkok dangerously in love!

2009-10-02T09:23:00.000+08:00

Bangkok Dangerous? Woooohoooo Bangkok yeah bebeh!

I'm feeling so lethargic today cant wait for 4pm :) Today is TGIF and i already have a holiday mood wooo :P Not really looking forward for class though :( The trainer really mades me wanna sleep and god knows yesterday i slept at what time. I will sleep in class definitely. This morning i had countless of yawns already.

The key to win the BATTLE when speaking to irritating users is to be PATIENCE. The key is to be patience then they will realise that "ouh yeah i'm sorry i know its not your mistake, i'm just venting my anger to you. Thank you for being patience." Woohooo then you know you feel so damn GOOOODDDD! That feeling is priceless for me and i love it. I think i'm quite good in making people calm down haha by my "pity me voice" users actually calm down and take back whatever they have scolded me. Am quite good in making them feel bad haha! Aku cute and i know that haha!

Counting Down to 23 more days? haha

Best quote i ever hear so far "I'll tell you when i tell you!" together with that expressions but anyway i LOVE that expressions. I'm a special girl wooo!

Wednesday AWESOMENES

2009-10-01T08:37:00.002+08:00

I think i know where i stand. Yesterday was very fun at last i get to meet my Ms P&C. Woohooo. And the time really flies very fast and i cant wait for the next meetup. Yeah why not uh? I think i cant blog about Ms P&C here because its very confidential and we don't want classmates/others to think why and what's going on? They might think why am i special? Although i know i am SPECIAL! In everyway. Especially someone in the class already knows who is Ms P&C. Its Private and confidential. For those who know please do not spread to the class or anyone. Thank you very nice.

For the past 2 modules i don't really care much on who is the trainer teaching as it is a short module but the next module I'm quite worried i don't want another eunice,l-bert,maler or andy that kind of trainer teaching us you see. Can we like request? haha Its a big module and I'm just concern that we will get another joker to teach us. God is fair and god willing hopefully we will get a good trainer someone like Abithah,Cecilia,Ronnie or maybe Esther or May.

So so so the very excited sexcited extremely excitedness yeah bebeh for the Sat Jalan Raya with Classmates Bebehs and Sun Jalan Raya with Colleagues =) Hopefully everything goes well.

Jerry gave all of us a gift for remembrance. Its a mug with group photo, personal photo and some memorable words. Mine is very cute with my photo so sweet :D But the sad thing is it means the last day is soon. But we do not know when.

I think that's about it cause I'm just too happy about yesterday and days ahead.:D

and now it would be "I'll tell you when i tell you!" She is killing me haha!

My monday sucks big TIME!

2009-09-28T22:45:00.005+08:00

Work today SUCKS big TIME really! I'm so gonna hate October this year except for the fact that birthday is coming that's all. I have absolutely nothing to be happy about cause its going to be a very very very busy busy busy HOT HOT HOT line haiz. Its end of year exams are coming and I'm so going to hate COCKPIT this entire month plus November. Am i physically and mentally ready? NOPE! I so feel like vanishing in thin airs and be back December like seriously. I don't know how but hopefully god will give me strength to overcome this :)

Lets put aside about work cause there is nothing to be happy about maybe only lunch time :P How do you define being "Open"? I don't know how to answer that another question will be, when do you think that the guy has gone tooo far? What is the limit like? I just totally have no answer to that.

Today went back by train hehe. Once in awhile Saiyidah must learnt to take train or bus :P and doing it wasn't bad after all i get to see some good looking guys haha Sometime you need to do some ehem ehem "cuci mata" haha! But seriously that guy was good looking :P

Class was so so so boring. I so have to do revision on my own after this. Wants to get this module over and done with :)

This October there is 3 Birthday babies woohoo. Lisa, afni and the girls we will definitely have an outing to celebrate our birthday together aites? The rest of the classmates can always come along la but apparently some people are very action la don't want to join because of age gap... HAHA full of reasons and i know you are going to read this :p I'm very adorable right? Haha

Alrights till then cant wait for Wednesday. Much more excited to meet my Ms P&C! wooohooo

"We'll see you when i see you!" Which is on Wed :D God willing!

Happy Sunday!

2009-09-27T21:36:00.003+08:00

Today was a stay at home Sunday for me. Decided to stay at home today instead of following the rest to Jalan Raya. hehe Mum was quite pissed off with that idea but i still stayed at home alone :)

I'm so lazy la to follow them and felt that it was quite redundant as sister was not there also and they are going to visit relatives that i rarely see? Yeah so i don't see any point to go, had good afternoon nap and watching TV at home alone :) I miss doing all this alright :p

Yesterday went for the OA for appraise and evaluate staff. DAMN i hate her attitude. She was giving me some faces like as if I'm the one that is wrong. WTH. Then she is not going to Oral us on the WA so if she thinks that we fail we have to just re-take the assessment and I'm quite worried about that. I just don't want to see her face anymore. The candy she gave us was nice though :p hehe.

I'm very very the Happy to receive News from Ms P&C and yeah cant wait to see you on Wednesday! Thanks once again for believing in me. Excited about Wednesday :)

This week is going to be an exciting week so far :D Tmr planning to go Little India with afni bebeh and the rest :) Tuesday Get to meet Lou as she's coming over got to rush home... Wednesday get to meet Ms P&C finally! Thursday, Friday not so much of anything special, Saturday Jalan Raya with the classmates Bebehs! Sunday go for Illya E-DAY with the Colleagues :)

Looking forward for a Good Week hopefully God willing :)

"We'll see you when i see you!"

New Addictions

2009-09-25T14:32:00.004+08:00

I'm in love with GMAIL hehe... Yesterday training was the BEST ever training i ever go! Unlike any COCKPIT training this is so not boring at all. Its fun and i get to see effandi woooo Not bad ah the voice sexy match the look.

Today most of the classmate involve in F1 will not be attending class sungguh bosan. Today is TGIF and yeah had lots of fun during lunch. Nothing interesting though same normal me and jerry with our nonsensical "dirty jokes".

Class was alright though, me and haz actually counted the lecturer saying the word "ah" and "alright" from the class starts till about 8pm then we gave up. He actually said about 100 plus of "ah" and around 50 plus of "alright". Totally alot la! I cant help it sia like seriously it was kind of irritating. Finaly met up with LISA! Miss her quite alot la.

I kind of not prepare for the OA tmr but wants it to get it over and done with. I really need to talk to my Ms P&C please hopefully i get her reply from her soon.

Cant wait for sunday jalan raya with family :) and also 3rd Oct Jalan Raya with the Bebehs :D

Birthday coming soon right should start thinking on what presents i want this year :D Please Forest Friends, Bestie, Lou and the rest of Famous Amos Family, colleagues at work Kak nonie and all, Classmates My Bebehs, Boyfriend (if have), My Ms P&C haha! Saiyidah wants PRESENTS! If cant give presents wishes and kisses will be much appreciated!

I want something different this year :) Usually every year On my birthday itself will celebrate with the GFs or family maybe this year I want a Hot DATE can? Anybody wants to date me on 25 Oct?

According to Someone *ehem ehem* i look Seductive here. Really? :p

Alright Have a great weekend ahead :D

"We'll see you when i see you!"

Jiwa!

2009-09-24T09:33:00.006+08:00

Yesterday WA i'm DEAD gone i bet she will have tons of quetions for me later on OA. Last minute preparations and trying hard to understand the module itself. I dont like this module and the trainer itself. I'll just have to prepare for the OA and i need alot of luck this time.

After the WA, me, nurul, haz. sophia, ivy and jason went to eat at Swensens :) The 6 of us definitely had lots of fun gossiping and chit-chatting after how many months together finally i get to sit down and have dinner with sophia, ivy and jason. Then we realise our class is united in sacking people and all but we never really went out together for dinner or for anything else together. Sophia was saying that maybe its due to age gap but i didn't think so i think we all can click quite well. Cause even uncle tang can entertain me and my nonsense in class can gossips with us the girls so i think there shouldn't be any age gap problem. Maybe everyone is busy. But afni and the rest were saying on organising chalet or so, so maybe we all can finally go out together as a class. For that we need to consult the chairperson in class first :)

I had lots of fun yesterday night with them and we should do it often surprisingly jason can entertain us the unpredictable man. I'm happy that i manage to get Geraldine and neville go out for a date to watch stomp :) Was suppose to follow them but i manage to escape somehow :) Soon they'll be lovebirds in class. If geraldine know I'm so gonna be DEAD. haha I Miss LISA! Nowadays she's always not around with us since the accident happened.

Somehow yesterday i feel quite sad cause i want to see Ms P&C but she was not around :( but i'm actually relieved abit :) there's a reason to it.

Family have decided to shift house. I'm sad cause its not gonna be the same anymore as we are moving to Punggol totally new environment for me. I LOVE TAMPINES! But i'm positive in changing new environment though. Hopefully things will get better. Relieve that we are getting away from that neighbourhood some people cant just see others happy.

Someone just reminded me, Birthday coming soon ah? really? haha "I don't know what, i don't know who, inside my heart i say yahoooo!" HAHA

Anyway today i have to attend some stupid training like shit la boring!

Have a great day :D

"We'll see you when i see you!"

yeh yeh its WEDNESDAY

2009-09-23T13:43:00.000+08:00

Some stupid users can really boost up my confidence level. They would always wants to blame the system and all but actually haha they are the one who overlook certain things. I feel exceptionally good today when i manage to so called made the user feel that they are wrong after i have heard their complains. They were scolding me like as if i'm the one who made the system, lecturing me, complaining to me made me listen to all their problems and i'm just smiling and explaining to them nicely. I'm such a nice innocent girl then they will admit its not my fault. HAHA. I LOVE THEM Somehow la. Love hate kinda tingy.

Today's test i'm so scared but i manage to study abit yesterday night but kind of "tak masuk otak sey" bingit!
I'm going to made cousins all wait for the pictures hehe evil me! Let them keep on waiting. hehe

Happy that today is wednesday. why? Because its class day! I want to see Ms Private and confidential, call me also use private number aiyoh so Private and confidential.

Now is "We'll see you when i see you!" blueks

Raya la wooohooo

2009-09-22T14:50:00.004+08:00

Its a long holiday and i so enjoy it. Sadly today have to resume work and theres lots of calls too what a hectic morning!

I love Hari Raya and had loads of fun meeting, bonding and interacting with cousins. Well for me i only meet them like once a year only those close ones i will meet them a few times and you can count that. So i really enjoy myself yesterday as well as sunday! I encounter lots and lots of cute stuff from friday all the way to monday. Surprisingly i still get some "duit raya" from my close relatives but i actually don't want to accept but mum was saying "rezeki" so have to take. Thanks alot to those aunties and some even say "tak nak rugi". Haha. But i'm a nice girl you know i dont take advantage on this heh. I want more of raya outing and cant wait for sunday continue our visiting to the rest of the houses. I dont know why but this year raya i feel so semangat.

On friday was on half day went home and do some cleaning, weaving the ketupats and help out here and there. Saturday continue with all the stuff needed to do had short nap before break fast and then continue till 2am fuuh but i manage to disappear for awhile to get my shoe this kind of things i will always do last minute. Normal me.

I'm so touched la receive an email from Ms Private and confidential on friday night just to wish me she is very sweet and touching. Will see you when i see you! and i want to see you soon! We will always have this see you2 thingy.

Ouh yeah I Miss you too Collin! and of cause the rest of the classmates. Miss you all bebehs! Cant wait to go for class but tmr is test and i havent really open the book yet cause of raya! WTH
Call me first if you want to come my house :)

Alright till then Have a nice week ahead :)

Reflections

2009-09-17T13:38:00.004+08:00

Time really past very fast and its already 27 Ramadhan. 3 more days and we are celebrating Hari Raya Aidilfitri. This is what i question myself so what did i do this ramadhan? Have i done anything good this month or will i do good for the rest of the months?

This year raya is very different for me its the year where i start giving and i can feel the difference. Giving is better than receiving right? No more collecting "duit raya" already for me haha. It also mean that i have grown up oooo can i just stay young and innocent? I'm actually excited for Raya! The mood is here already and i will be busy preparing for raya, doing all the last minute stuff.

Somehow i feel that i love ramadhan i love fasting month. It teaches us alot about being descipline and all. Everyone should try fasting and feel it. Ouh yeah especially this month i learnt alot to be patience. Talking with people that wants it their way might be challenging at times and repeating the same thing over and over again is so damn tiring so yeah i really learnt to have patience this ramadhan.

Tommorow i'm having half day and might not be going to class. So can only see my classmates next wednesday. I will miss all my classmates and my kakak-kakak maintains. IMY Bebehs!

Anyway Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to all. Maaf zahir dan batin~

"Don't worry we'll meet when we meet." God willing we'll meet.

Love hate kinda thing

2009-09-16T13:04:00.003+08:00

Firstly i'm so FCUKING pissed yesterday! This is just right before i left the office. Please la look at yourself in the mirror if you feel you would like to say something that does not concern you. You as a what it call Team leader cant even lead a good example and yet have the chick to roll your eyes at me?!

Geram sey macam manenye bagus jer nk jeling2 aku! Hmph!
FYI/FYA I HATE YOUR ATITTUDE BOY!

Okay what is past is past. Lets move on to the nicer side, finally we met after such a long time. Had a good talk/laugh but we forgot to take pictures haha. Lets book chalet and have loads of fun like we always had! Cant wait for kak noor's baby to be born am so excited! I miss lou and mas sadly they were not there to join us.

Today is a brand new module with a brand new trainer hopefully the trainer is lively, funny and not cold. Another short module then after that there will be 2 tough module, i should think so.

Cant wait for 3rd Oct jalan raya! Hopefully all went well and we will have loads of fun interacting with each other. Most importantly get to bermaaf-maafan. Cant wait for december holiday trip with the classmates, that we'll be another loads of fun. =)

Right now currently waiting patiently for 4pm to go out of this place call office and breath a fresher air! Some people are too selfish that they dont bath in the morning and it stinks here over at the other side lucky i never seat one row with him if not i DIE suffocating.

Ok la thats all. Have a great wednesday ahead and ILY la pantat :)

"Dont worry we'll meet when we meet." Hope to see you around soon :D

Lame

2009-09-15T13:03:00.004+08:00

What a boring draggy day~~~~

I'm so in my holiday raya mood right now. I hate this stupid feeling i'm having right now. I'm so lazy to work no energy to check my cases. Please give me some motivation cause i so need it. I practically cant wait for 4pm right now i'm so counting down towards it. Looking forward for after work activity.

Meeting up the Famous amos peoples including best friend and i cant wait like really please make the time goes by faster! I have nothing to blog except for telling the whole world that i'm BORED please entertain ME!

Yesterday last lesson with that trainer is so relieve finally its OVER! No more facing her coldness, boringness, ermmm proudness? Hopefully the OA will be just fine and everyone can board the plane to china safely.

I wonder how office will be if jerry has left. He will be the one that made our day by his joke and disturbing us and made us laugh when we are stress with users or the top people. The office will be so quiet if he's not around and i'm very sad. Even though he always disturb me and everyone else but it will made our day somehow. And also i will definitely miss my obscene/dirty jokes with him cause nobody else will entertain me after that. Haiz. But life has to go on its for his betterment.

Ok la IMY Bebeh!

"Dont worry we'll meet when we meet." God willing we'll meet soon. I will wait for that day =)

Monday totally blues~~~

2009-09-14T07:43:00.008+08:00

Today is Monday Blue!

Weekend was alright~ On saturday had to go back school for Oral Assesment for Manage Programme Delivery! I manage to clear and apparently i'm the third person to board the plane to China. After that i went to town with Afni and break fast at Far east puncak. Then meet family at geylang.

"I didnt know theres alot of malays till i go down to geylang." Some minah said this. But that saturday was really horrible and terrible OMG The crowd there was really horrible its like every single malays are there.

Yesterday i finally clean my room and i felt relieve wooo and nothing much.

Tommorow iftar with Famous Amos peeps it has been awhile since we last gather. Cant wait to meet them.

School today hope it will be alright and am happy today is the last day to see that trainer.

Have a great week ahead =) My perasan picture! hehe I MISS HIM like crazy!

"Dont worry we'll meet when we meet." God willing we'll meet. That's an improvement!

Out with Foresties!

2009-09-11T08:00:00.003+08:00

Here is an update on yesterday short and sweet meet up

Well we had Secret Recipe for our break fast and the service is really bad. I dont mind that they forget about my food and its late that is still okay but the waiter/waitress attitude really sucks. No smiling face, very clumsy, very rude and there is this waitress actually roll her eyes at me when i smile at her. OMG. The food was okay2 only but the cake is awesome.

Overall it was a fun meet up as it has been quite some time since we have full strength gathering. We also went to geylang and i found the baju raya i want! Yeh buying it wooo...

This morning check my mails OMG need to re-do and add on certain things for the FA. Haiz.

On the Happy note i got a reply from Ms Private and confidential. I always know that god made certain things happened for a reason and one of it is to meet and get to know Ms Private and confidential. I will definitely focus on completing this course. Thanks for the advise appreciate it much.

Here is some pics taken on Tuesday =)

Have a great Friday ahead! TGIF i'm sleepy! :D

"Dont worry we'll meet when we meet." God willing we'll meet!

Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday

2009-09-10T08:38:00.004+08:00

Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday.

It has been so packed this week everyday OUT and will only be back 11pm or 12pm and i'm only getting 5 or 6 hours of sleep. But nobody force me to go out right? heh

Tuesday was very FUN and i learn new song "Beli la dend deng oi beli la deng deng." haha Went to iftar with Ummi, rab, illya and malz like finally we went out together. We went to eat at Zam zam abit dissapointing though as there were only Briyani and Murtabak. The food was cold when by the time its time to break fast. Then we headed to geylang, after almost an hour to find the parking we finally found 1 and head to the bazaar. Ummi was very nce to send everyone home. Had 4 hours of sleep thanks aidah for waking me up.

Yesterday was alright the only thing that i'm Happy about is finally i met my Ms Private and confidential! oooo i'm happy but we didnt really talk much though cause its in public and certain question i cant ask her cause its restricted due to private and confidential. I'm touched la she miss me too. Hope to catch up with her soon.

Class was okay just that the trainer is quite boring and cold. My role play suck to the max me and nurul dont know what we talking about. Haiz. Had golden pillow for break-fast makan berdamai.

Today finally meeting FORESTIES! Ouh i miss them so much. Will update about this meetup after i dont know how many months...

Class is abit boring also as Lisa is not in and not in the group cant really joke that much cause she is usually the one that jokes with me. When you coming to class sey lisa?

Anyway Have a great Thursday ahead :D

Will be waiting for your reply wooo :P

"Dont worry we'll meet when we meet." Right? hehe

Damn Tuesday

2009-09-08T10:29:00.004+08:00

Hate my nose TODAY! Feels like cutting it and put it inside the freezer. Damn its irritating.

Saiyidah is trying very hard to be strong this coming SA2. Life is so miserable here at work. Trying very hard to "LOVE" this job of hers. Saiyidah thanks her colleague for being there for each other and try very hard to made each other laugh when all are very stress. Saiyidah thank her group mates, cliques, classmates and kakak2 dlm class for making class always happening even though the Trainers differs in every way. Saiyidah loves everyone. Saiyidah also thank her GOOOOOOD nice users that appreciates her helps and also thank those IRRITATING FUSSY users that appreciates her help too.

When can i meet Ms Private and confidential, i know i know physical meet does not matter its the heart, mind that matters. Its very touching la. I know no matter where you are you'll always remember me. Touching la hehe.

Saiyidah is feeling crazy2 and gila2 and hate this stupid feeling that she have now. Ok DAMN whatever.

"Have a GREAT Weekend when its only monday" haha

I love this picture.

"Don't worry we'll meet when we meet." Hopefully soon give me a call la!

What's wrong with Friday???

2009-09-05T08:04:00.005+08:00

What's wrong with FRIDAY? Really what is wrong with Friday?

Firstly, early in the morning i have LOTS of calls, i cant breath or should i say no time to breath! The entire NETWORK was DOWN! All the MOE users are unable to get connected to Internet and Intranet. HAIZ. My voice was used to do the Network Outage Message when people call in they hear my voice first! HAHA nice! It was down from 6am till 11.45am. Users are getting worried as half of their day gone cant print Result slips from that COCKPIT. Hectic Friday Morning!

Then after work went to class. Along the way receive msg from many not coming to class. So end up only me, nurul, haz and Siti for the malay girls. We plan to eat Pizza Hut as Geraldine want it to be deliver and Nurul was also excited about it and Haz was okay with it. We order it at around 6pm and it said that it will be delivered at 7.30pm and gave us the Order number which is Nurul's number. Some miscommunications happen food never arrive i'm so dissapointed but Nurul was upset. I'm just HUNGRY.

So Haz was asking whether we wants to go for FISH n CO after class. I totally agree to it cause i was damn HUNGRY. I woke up late and didnt eat anything and left the house, i cant fast but still of cause i wont go out and eat during lunch. Have to respect. I only had Oreo that morning and was damn hungry. Nurul and geraldine was Fine about it and i decided to ask Neville along as he LOVES fish and co! We wanted to pass the message to him but intead he pass it to Collin haha But after that he manage to receive it and is ON about it.

So the 5 of us went in to Fish and Co at around 9.50pm we are the last customer. Another incident happen. The bill came first before the food cause they had to do their closings and when geraldine check the bill it state there we order 4 New York fish and chip whereas its only 2. Nurul was already pissed she is still upset about the pizza hut tingy but we manage to settle it. I had New york fish and chips with geraldine and the rest of them had Seafood platter. Neville help me with my fries cause its ALOT.

We had GOOD food and went home with a happy and full stomach! Share cab with Haz and Neville as it was late already had to report for work early in the morning. Sent Haz first back home and we had a good chat inide the cab. Neville is a nice guy and very good guy la quite innocent also many randoms topic came up. He advise me at my age i should explore first before choosing that someone. Haha!

Ouh yeah class was okay apparently they gave us a Senior Trainer, Ms Maler and i still could not get the pronounciation right yet. Lets hope everything will go smoothly. :)

Thats all today network is still down! Stupid i'm going home straight to have my beauty sleep and finish the Asignment by Sunday so weekends will be doing assignment. Nobody wants to date me out la very sad :(

And i MISS "Ms Private and Confidential" after last wed 40 mins chat i didnt get to see her anymore. Its okay we'll meet when we meet right? wooo

Have a great weekend :) Mine will be boring!

Wednesday is LOVE

2009-09-03T12:09:00.005+08:00

Yesterday was fun at home and School. I was on MC for 2 days enjoy myself very much. Lets talk about the happy stuff first. Lets start with yesterday Break fast, we were having KFC, Long john and MCD for the feast.

Last Lesson for Manage Programme Delivery and it feels like time flies very fast. May is a very good trainer and she is the sentimental type that never mind i dont know how to explain. haha She gave us children's day gift and very sweet of her. I'm very touched you know! Need to share this with someone Ms Private and confidential when i meet her.

We also took lotsa of pictures with the help of Ronnie. Will post it here and have uploaded it at Facebook. Sadly lisa is not around not consider full strength though. Friday is a new module, lets pray that the trainer is alright? heh

This morning after 2 days of MC i have to pick up a call at 7.10am a PRINCIPAL complaining and making a hell of noise regarding some announcement that is incorrect. It was something like an award that the teacher received from the President and is published to the entire MOE schools and apparently there is some mistake with the school name. She is so not happy about it. Early in the morning who has report to work yet except for us the helpdesk? This person wants IMMEDIATE action! A very TENSE morning for me. I'm only gone for 2 days and this is what i get!

Nowadays i'm less motivated to work this IMPT ppl must make us happy la! I never feel appreciated at all some times due to this STUPID USERS that calls in. I hate users that ACT that they know but actually they doesn't know anything! Senang kata BODOH SOMBONG ah...

Ok la i dont want to brag about this cause its waiting my time and energy typing!

Have a great THURSDAY ahead :D

"Dont worry we'll meet when we meet." and i want that!